#MyMind-Please, lets stop this music!

I feel something has happen,
Something made him change,
I notice the behaviour,
The silence, the cynical attitude is back,
The lack of focus and the sad empty face,
Or am i just getting wrong readings due to my own denial,
I see a blur expression,
He keeps on staring into space,
I can do the jig in front of him and yet he wont even notice that i am doing it,
We could be discussing halfway trough something and he walks and leave,
He wants to follow in anything, thats amazing..
What had happen.

Nope he wont tell us,
Probably he told him but this message has not come to me,
Why? i can think of 2 but which is the right one,
I dunno.

1 is because he think that i will nag him,
That maybe i will be cold and start over all my sarcasm,
That i would say i told you so and gain victory,
That i would be someone i was last time but not now any more,
Its not victory i want,
Its truth and loyalty,
Loyal to who you are with, truth to who you are surrounded,
Things cant be hidden forever,
Dont he know we are family,

2 is perhaps he thinks i would be pest,
none of my business why should i be told,
he just would like for once not too say something and get hit back..
for once he would just like him minding his own business,
yes i get it,
but dont go parading in front of me, I would ignore
But you go parading in front of the rest, they will ask me
and i can't ignore

I heard rumours,
rumours that does not settle well with me,
who is the second figure now,
Maybe its better for me not to know then,
cause then maybe i would have to face the music again,
Idiotic!! dont tarnish your own name in your own field,
how tired we are protecting you,
tired of providing you room and space to change,
That is not life,

I said some words before this,
Probably it shook your heart,
i didnt know,
if what i said offended you,
it was not attentionally,
i was sarcastic but with a reason,
We are no angels but we are humans,
We make mistake, We have lot of faults,
But there is always room for us to change...
Maybe all of this happen for a reason,
Take whatever happen if it did as a room, opputernity for change,
Maybe i just should shut and be thankful it happen..

Please, lets stop this music, lets change to a mellow one..