..Kiss me trough the phone..

..Listening to Mr Adam sing.!~ Nice voice but sayang skali..he is not into ME.He said "We remains as friend forever. I'll do your hair and you'll do my nails and we share all the ups and downs..but i never can be with you but i may be into your husband"..owh Sad =(..Hahaha...just joking!! He is singging in my ears now..'Whataya want from me'..Well nothing Mr Lambert, i replied. Just then, Kris took over the mic and started to sing heartless.' ...he lost his soul to a woman so heartless......"..ahahah..angan angan je ni. ACtually i'm so bored. Dead!! x tahu nak tulis apa...x tahu nak buat apa..tunggu time to go home to my cosy patch... I am on my lappy, talking with a few friends on YM while checking my emails and listening to my list of songs...Just happen those 2 favourite of mine played exactly when i started to scribble in this blog. Have you ever felt just by looking at someone, you feel anoyed. You feel you just wanna tell that person off and just waiting for the right time. Waiting patiently for the person to just say something to tick you off..but it never happens and you feel UrGhH!~~.Damn i'm so anoyed and mad!~..If you have. Okay i end this nonsense blog. Rubbish..i am not at a good state of mind..excuse ME....bye..kiss me trough the phone...!~~

..My mum that i love

..My mum, she has been having hot flushes, mood swing and such.. She has been complaining about this since she celebrated her birthday in 2009.. I just dengar masuk telinga kiri keluar kanan.. Every time i see her..dia complain..me x pernah pulak take it seriusly.. Suddenly while working i teringat my mum..one day..i also will go trough what she is going trough.. She help me go trough my pregnancy and of course delivery.. she told me what to expect and what to do to make it less pain.. Why dont i listen to her groans for once..so i search..i googled.. As i found out what it was i search for a cure, There is no cure..she, we ,all women has to go trough it.. Its not just a period of a month..i cant be going on till 4 or more years, As i read..my eyes shed some tears.. As i read..i was thinking of how much i love her and how much she has thought me.. I need my mum though i am grown and have a daughter of my own.. I was thinking about how she felt when my grandma pass away.. How strong she was..every girl learn from their moms..and Mom is a big role in life..MAJOR.. Can i be like her for my Daughter..??? I realise..she has aged... She is strong but no longer the supermum she was when i was a kid.. Who brought us up rough and tough and great as we are now.. Her skin has wrinkled as i touch the other day i said " ma ur skin soft and wrinkled" She said.." i am getting older not younger.." that didnt occur to me untill i read wat i read today.. I love you Mummy and i will always do and the heart is always a place for you... Love your mummies, they brought you into the world risking their lives. tak susah skali skala dengarla apa luahan and complains from your mum...

...Satu Malaysia from what i see....

Semalam lepak kat kedai mamak belakang ni, minum teh dengan husband. His frens Damon and Gaylen pun ada. Biasalah kita MALAYSIAN..pukul 4 cam tu..TEH TARIK La..Mamak relax je bawak teh. Dah minum teh..sumer makan Roti Canai. not mistaken ni sumer food yang orang India terer la sangat..bab bab ni...Husband tengah baca paper lama mana ntah, pasal bakar gereja. Malaysia tak aman macam dulu. Rakyat dah lupa tragedi 13 May. Who yang survive to tell the story tentu x akan macam ni. X percaya???..tanyala dekat my aunts and uncle yang dah lalui saat hitam tu. Diorang hanya mampu geleng kepala. The younger generation tak tahu. Should they learn the lesson the hard way?..

"Killing never solve anhything"

Aku pun, kadang kadang alpa and lupa.Belajar je sejarah. Favourite subject but x learn anything from there. But i always restrain myself from being racist as much as i can and i teach my daughter that. Me and Idris come from mix parentage. Caci hina satu kaum pasti terasa diri ni sebab kami dari perkahwinan campur. And my friend dari mix parents juga agree..cubit peha kanan pihi kiri kadang kadang rasa jugak. We all are connected stop the racial conflict. Bukan kata yang bukan kahwin campur ni low mentality. Alhamdulillah all my friends are well behaved.Yes, ini malaysia. of course malay has more say than other races.Itu kita kena bukak balik sejarah and we have to understand why and accept it la.. But i am sure we can work things out to benefits all. Lempar caci maki hina is not something that can solve isu isu ni... Hanya akan menyemarakkan api kemarahan saja.

"The pen is sharper than the sword"

Masa my wedding..was not like a malay wedding. You can see all races mingling and talking. laughing and exchanging view.My cousins come from all race...and we are united. Invite they come, they invite we attend as much as we can. And we understand each others Religion. I cannot say la xda mengumpat. mesti ada sikit sikit but we try to be nice as possible and understanding. Slowly la de..nak terima something yang x biasa kita tengok or not in our normal routine mmg pelik la kan..Akward sikit.But the main thng is we try....

"Respect others and others will respect us"

But one thing can unite some malaysian is when it comes to sport. Semalam tengah tengok badminton match. Malaysia againts China. Malaysian badminton players of course banyak chinesse lepas the Sidek Brothers x main lagi kan. Satu table tu..a few malay guys and Indians tengah watch. Bersorak for the players..yang of course bukan same race. They know their names, their know who they are...but why is it when come to simple matters we dicriminate each other. Janganlah..its not nice to hear..apatah lagi image kat orang luar especially the orang putih (being racist jugak ni and discrimnating) yang suka intervene and interfere ngan hidup orang Asia.

I love you Malaysia and i am proud to be your citizen. My vision of 1 Malaysia is Peace & Harmony but of course la nak achieve to kita kena go trough banyak obstacles.

..Adnan Sempit...

Rating: 8/10 Star:Sebab masa aku tengok tu cinema full la sangat. Aku duduk row paling depan. Sakit tengkuk and x dapat nak enjoy sangat. Kelakar la citer ni. Aku x mungkin tengok if bukan adik aku boy yang beriye nak tengok. Kelakar but xdela sampai gelak gila gila. Cam mamat sebelah kitorang ni. Lawak 20 sen je dia gelak sampai tepuk2 kerusi,jatuh kerusi segala..Over acting betul. Or maybe lawak aku x paham sangat. Tapi dia sorang je cam tu. Yang lain xde pun!!~~ Overall dia nye motif citer ni is Adnan suka bos dia but bos dia susah nak admit dia pun lama lama suka adnan..and how they jatuh cinta. jalan citer very de singkat! Simple and relax. Tade la pening2 kepala hotak...and something biasala any one would go trough- Perasan, Suka orang, Takut jatuh cinta, Takut jatuh standard, Pandang orang sebelah mata and diskrimanasi sesetengah orang. Aku nak pergi tengok skali lagi..sbb masa aku pergi tu pening kena dongan hampir 90 darjah. Gila kan MBO melaka mall. boleh dia buat seat sedekat tu. Kot ye pun front row x payah la sampai orang leh sakit tengkuk muntah...sengal sungguh... Pergi tengok de..xde rugi mende de..!~~

..Papa Hensem..

Tengok statement atas tu..ahah..rindu kat Sarah. She is asleep now. Tadi Sarah main with her patung baby. Dia namakan dat doll "Baby Batish" (sempena nama kezen dia). Now dia tido baby tu mesti ada sebelah dia. Bila dia bangun she will checked on the baby, tengok dia kencing ke,lapar ke.. Kadang2 datang angin dia, she will ask me to play and talk to the baby while she watch TV. Cheh..aku kena jadi baby doll sitter pulak..perli mummy eh sayang!~ Sarah likes to be with me..but when she is with me and her dad she v.Naughty. Today when she open her eyes, she heard Idris mandi. He just came back from his business trip semalam..She smiled the most sincere and loving smile. " Papa mandi wash wash wash..mother" " Yes mama know..sarah come get up mandi" " Tak nak..yaya wan tido.." Idris keluar bilik air... " Papa hensem..." (ayat bodek dia bila x nak do something or nak something) "Sarah go mandi sayang.." " Tak nak..papa kakai baju..wet. yap yap papa" (Tak nak, Papa pakai baju. Wet. Wipe wipe papa) Itula my little sarah..pandai membebel. negotiate ngan orang....cepatnye dia besar..dah nak 2 years..i miss her lil baby days..

..Udang oh Udang

..Sakit perut tanda tanda nak kena Alergy nih...

..Tulah xleh makan udang nak makan udang...

..Abih dah ade lauk udang je...

..Jap g gerenti menggaru garu and panas...

...Or boleh dihentikan kalau aku g carik ubat Alergy aku yang dah habis tu sekarang..

....Nak kena pergi farmasi tu yang leceh...

...Adoi....benci la sejak bersalin Udang yg dulu feveret ni dah jadi musuh number 2...

..Musuh number 1 carrot...ahahahhaha...

...Talk the Talk..

" mother,yaya want lilo aitish..pish..." sarah said. So cute. The 'Pisshhh" kat hujung tu yang boleh buat Mama Cair..like the ice cream jugak. She dah grow..where is my liltle baby. I keep on looking at her finding the baby once i pegang so cute in my arms. Yang dulu need me for everything. Now dia makin indipendent.But..i still see the baby infront of me.

Sarah dah makin bijak and cepat je tiru gaya orang.Becarefull jangan salah cakap or salah laku depan dia. Confirm dia akan ikut...and dia jugak suka menyakat..hmm wonder where she gets that from. The other day when i was back from work nak pergi pick her up at my mums. Dia tengah main sorang2 kat bilik with her teddy bear. I found her pakaikan pampers kat teddy dia. Then she ask the teddy.

" Baby nak susu? Nak Susu?"..while lifting her baju to give teddy milk. Sambil tepuk2 the teddy like i do to her she singging to the teddy like i do to her when i make her sleep. Then later she put the teddy down.." baby u-uk eh..busyuk!!..change pampers..wash bumbum.." so clear her words..rasa nak picit picit mulut yang becok tu..

The other day travelling to Langkawi on the flight after i said i will buy ice milo for her when we land. She saw the stewardess pushing the card with boxes of milo.."ah there Lilo ice (milo ice)".before i could stop her she called out to the stewardess " kak ice lilo kak pish..ice lilo"..the stewardess look at me and smile. so i said ok Satu, and she also repeat after me " satu ice lilo."..i had to pay RM 5. Cekik darah punya Air Asia.

Once we wanted to have McDonalds so my husband said kita drive thru saja la. while my husband ordering, Sarah mencelah.." aitish satu.."..Idris look at her and said NO. ' papa please buy one lilo aistis yeay...!~" her sentence so full and proper...gerams la bila dia pandai bebel. Tapi dia pun dah pandai melawan...

...Once upon a StOrY..

Story, I tell story you got story, Your story like i heard from another story, Before you told your story i heard already, Your story seems to be unlikely your story.. I tell my story, suddenly i heard it change and became your story, When you story to some other body.. Funny..how can my experience be your story, Story stealer with no story... When somebodey denies your story, Your swear your story very ori.. Funny..how can story be complicated like you story.. Next time my story will have TM registered... So that you cannot come and take my story... Hehhehehehe.....

..'The Island'... here i come..

..Yipee..today in about 5 hours i will be boarding the plane..Where to?

Some place close to my heart. Where to?

Some place with lots of memories planted.Where to?

Some place where its calm and relaxing for me and really meaningfull..Where to?

Some place for you maybe boring but for me its lively...

Why there? Cause there where it all began for me..where my heart changed and i found love.

Why there? Cause i learn the meaning of friendship, to trust, to love, to give and take...

Why there? Cause i made so many friends which last me till me now..

Ah i waited so long to be back there, i waited for 5 years, i dreamt so many times i was back there..especially when i miss it the most.Was i cursed not to set foot there again after all the grumble i made during my stay there. I did plan to go there but always, there's always something to put it on hold.

No Not TODAY..definately not TODAY. Pls not Today...He granted me my wish this time...to have this closure on the place once i hated so much..

No one can get it, no one will understand why..maybe only those that was once there with me..during the struggle and during the best and worst times we had...

To Nenek, Elina, Shira,KC,Abby,Zack,Nurul (miss you a lot gerl), Niza, Ana, Sam, Masna, Nor d dugong,Shaukat (where are you??), THE GUYS: Choopsy, Ery, Din Kelate, Papa Jai, Hamzah (may your soul rest in peace, we love you and miss you),Along, Shah, Hanis, Tabib, and the whole batch of 2000. I will reminisce the times i had with you guys there..

...Aunty & Niece Feud!~~..

I always hear my mum say My lil sis and My lil Angel always Quarell. Today, i witness myself the 'Nakal' of Sarah. Kesian my sis but sometime she is big enough to understand and mengalah but yes la being the youngest she is not use to it so she pun tunjuk perangai. First both of them eating ice cream, Sarah, known for her ice cream fetish finish hers before my sis who likes to eat slowly and let the ice cream melt. She wanted to exchange her half cone with my sis . (Not fair Barter SaRAH)!!!! So my sis said NO, shockingly Sarah shouted a reply CAN. I never thought her this...so this 'No- Can- No- Can' thing was going on for about 5 minutes in front of me..Haizz!~ so i brought Sarah to buy Cut Guava instead.My sister tagging along also wanted Cut Sour Mango..okay i bought each one. Then my sis dah get her mango she wanted some of Sarah's Jambu keeping her mango. I ask her to buy x nak. She keep picking from Sarah sampai Sarah memekak memekak angry chasing her up down in Sentral. Adoi so pening.!~ hen my sis lies near my mum, Sarah will come in between and demands the attention on her. When Sarah plays her toys quietly by herself pulak my sis will come and play and take all her toys in possession which makes my sarah so mad. So she hit my sis with her lil saucepan. Haish..my sis hit her with the plastic spoon.My sis teaching her to play her way when Sarah has her own way. My sis buys chocolates, sarah must also have. when Sarah got a new toy my sis wants something too. So now we have 2 cube of rubic, 2 colour pencils boxes (one small one big)...somethings Sarah cant play cause she is still small..but it is only a matter of time..Haish..

...1st Movie opening for the Year..

My rating: 8.5/10 Stars cause ade part buat me dizzy when the camera pusing pusing. NOT suitable for orang pregnant, sakit jantung, lemah semangat, kanak kanak bawah 14 tahun and also orang yang 'sensitif'.. Part-Part Seram: Pintu gerak sendiri, Pintu tertutup then ade orang tendang and cuba bukak, Ade tapak kaki binatang jalan atas bedak and masuk bilik, Katie kena tarik, Katie Senyum Jahat, Bunyi bunyi dari dalam rumah, Cadar kena tarik and cam ade orang masuk dalam selimut, Katie tido berdiri, Katie berjalan sampai luar rumah, Papan Ouija terbakar, Orang cakar gambar muka micah dengan sendiri, Katie berdiri satu sudut and cadar Micah tertarik satu sudut, Katie tengok micah tido, Part Katie rasa ade orang bernafas kat tengkuk dia and pandang dia,Katie turun and menjerit2, Katie baling Micah kat kamera, FIRST MOVIE AKU TENGOK TUK TAHUN 2010 Ni..PEMBUKA YANG AMAT SERAM Siut punya seram cerita ni. Bukan seram yang dibuat buat..but you feel it by yourself. Unique la ..Uiks..i wish i could bring my husband along. Unfortunately he's not around this week. Basically its about spritual believes and also entities. This things do exist around us, its just that we can't see it. And Demons!~ well each religion tells us there is Demons and the main objective of the Demons is to screw your life!~..Ahahaha..Ussh...seram..tegak bulu roma while writing this blog. Well wat i can say. Katie's problem here is probaly something the Malay communitiy believes to be 'Saka'. Maybe la..but in this movie it is potrayed as somekind of a beastly inhuman creature. The scariest part is, this can happen to you ,if you believe or not in spiritual entities and demons it can happen to you!! That is wat made it much more scary. Nasib la i didnt go for midnite..sure x balik punya la..or nak balik pun i ask my mum, dad,sis with my aunt and kezen come and fetch me. The more the merrier. The movies makes me dont want to be alone...went to watch the evening show with my OBFF...hoh...After the movie we came out Pucat..untill one of my friends tegur.. " What happen to both of you so pucat??".... "Er..nothing we just came out from a movie.." " What movie did this..?" "Paranormal Activity...".. "Alamak..i am watching the 820 show..!!".. well brace yourself my friend...Had a good time today. With rastafarian staff and also friends...chilling on a thursday watching a thriller was actually not my Idea. Nenek: Watch it AFTER you deliver Ima: Screw you for making me fear of my own bedroom now and my husband is not here..ahahha

..A brand New Me??..I like myself..

Tahun baru again!~.Orang semua sibuk with Azam. Azam aku seperti biasa...is to improve myself. InsyaALLAH!! There is no point writting it down, halfway you stop improving. One step at a time.. This year, my new year started early..yes..2 days ahead. No fireworks, No countdown. Just getting together and and reconnecting. I feel going out to crowded places on the EVE for countdown and sorts are for those still courting.ME..i have my hubby..all to myself, i have my home where is much more comfortable and i have my daughter to entertain me.So why do i wanna go out. Sedar x sedar, dah 6 hari berlalu. Exactly 13 years before on this very date, My sister past away. She would have been 20 this year. This year, the year of the Tiger as the chinesse say. My daughter would be 2 another 2 months from now. She is talkative,smart and becoming more independent. Everyone says its about time for another. But i still like to keep my Baby Sarah the way she is now. Well that is not possible. Planning to have another, but cant bare the thought of going trough labour. Well after 3days new year, my husband left me..heheh not for good. But for work a week. I can see that this year he will travel more and i would be spending less hours with him. Well i will just fine another source of companionship while he is gone..hehe for example..work. yess...i wont quit my work for you now baby..sorry!~owh ya i started to do some handwork crosstich..i wanna habiskan this time and frame it. A simple scenery of Autumn in the Country. Both i loikE!~~... This is only beginning of the year..i would like to keep my blogging simple. Maybe later i will write down some complicated stuff...Happy New Year..may 2010 bring happiness, joy, health and wealth in good hands... Ps: The muslims celebrated New Year 2 weeks ahead..so this is not something new to me..