:: Blog for the year 2010::

Windy:: Today bangun 11am. Windy, no sun all clouds, angin tiup sejuk!~~ Best gila macam ade kat cameron. Since yesterday night the wheather was fine. Some say after a fine calm wheather comes disaster. Thats how Tsunami Happen. InsyaALLAH xdela kot. Just that end year memang cam ni. Selalu start december dah macam ni. Ni lewat sikit. Bangun, kemas rumah, mandikan+brekfes tuk dua rugrats tu. then lepak. Malas to even on laptop or buat apa apa kerja. Duduk tengok TV and tido tengahari. Syioknya bila x pergi Kedai.

It takes 2 to tango:: Dalam semangat 1 malaysia, kita x boleh jadi rasis. Hanya satu ras-Malaysian bukan? yeah tapi semalam Idris accident dengan Cina. Okay tade hal. Tak cakap apa pun cuma bincang how to settle memandangkan dia langgar belakang.Budak sekolah-habis STPM-P driver. Kesian kat dia, kata settle tepi jela. setakat bayar duit ketuk  body. Mesti x banyak tapi kena betulkan. Budak tu ok. Balik dia dengar cakap abang dia kot apa ntah dia g buat Polis Report. X kisahla bagus jugak tapi dia x inform- kalau kami x buat juga dalam masa 24 jam jadi kamila salah. Langgar lari. X ke cam apa je peranagai. Alasan dia..family dia takut nanti kitorg harass dia sebab kami melayu? aiseh men? mende? kalau kami nak rasis dari langgar tadi terus mmg ko x balik sebab dah sekeliling yang datang semua  melayu.Please la..orang slalu kata Melayu yang rasis. tapi actually Bangsa lain jga begitu malah lagi terurk sebab x nak cuba untuk tidak rasis.[ dah disni je aku dah rasis]..argh!!!. Memasing Rasis. Tapi x semua macam tu ok!!!

Tamil & Hindi Movies:: Today watch 2 movies yang best. 1st one half way on Astro 202 if not mistaken while eating at the mamak shop. Best gila that movie. Hero dia no fear..ahaha selain dari sound effect yang Awesome. Jalan cerita dia menarik..memang d boom. Vettaikaran if not mistaken. Nama hero dia Polis Ravi..dia lawan gangster dengan cara ganster.Second movie is 3 idiots. Citer ni masuk Cineplax..x sangka lak so damn funny now i wanna find the DVD 9-blue ray ke. memang aswesome la citer ni. Idris dari nak tido x jadi. Ketawa terbahak bahak.

Belog:: So far read balik my blog has not much of what i intend to write, Just plainly about me. Ade pasal benda benda lain yang xde kena mengena. I would like to write my thoughts..dengan penyakit 'pelupa' ni..maybe i should so that in future i wud still know what i use to think about. ahah

:: I wanna be a Reggae DJ Mixer::

DEDICATED TO MY FRIENDS

(Zakiah, Alice, Nenek, Ana Banana,Nani,Nadiah,Rachel and the rest)

Hait as korang tahu kan, Rastafari is all about reggae. Sepanjang hari kat kedai dengar lagu reggae xleh in ngan me. yerp reggae memang peacefull and relax [kadang cam too calm], tapi aku kekadang kena ade beat to boost me or some lagu yang ade RNB. Yerp aku suka menari nari..husband aku x suka. So aku mula mencari a way aku leh main lagu yang aku suka kat RASTAFARI bila aku ada. And i found a bunch of my favourite songs reggae remix and it sounds so cool .

Check out. Lagu ni for ya'll ya.Ma bestfriends. Its for ya'll. Enjoy.!!

ps:: tapi ini x sebest copy yang aku ada..sbb dah le reggae, remix lagi and its Alicia wit Damian Marley!! ari ni aku makan banyak jugak so sebab tu merepek and download banyak banyak.

::2 more days to a new year::

Today bangun lambat. Semua skali bangun lambat. Sebab::Cuaca kat luar best gila..mendung berangin.woo ku inginkan hari hari mendatang macam ni je bestnya. Berangan ade kat tepi pantai..best lak combination-Mendung+Angin+laut= damai.

Sarah bangun as usual mesti menyanyi. This time lagu jingle bells!~ Tapi versi dia la:: Jingle bell jingle bell papa jin bogel, jin bogel jin bogel jin bogel besar:: Salah Idris la siapa la suh ajar dia bukan bukan. Tengok you kena balik kan. I dah cakap banyak kali. DO not teach her nonsense.

Sofea bangun ketawa senyum.Bersuara tapi aku x paham la ..ALalalla@!~~ si chumel sorang ni. Dah le halus..seluar dia dah londeh...nampak peha dia yang putih tu. Idris pulak tengah tido lagi. X sihat. Been working his *** off this December cause banyak orang. Overworked.overworked??!!~?..ahaha this is roughly what its like waking up in my home.

After hot cup of coffee.mandikan Sofea while idris mandi. Idirs siap, sofea siap. Yaya and mother mandi while Idris drinks his cup of nescafe. Ahaha..apa yang penting? KERJASAMA..wonderpets datang membantu!!..lepas siap..lock up and head for RASTAFARI. Hari ni semua nak sibuk di kedai sebab-saja nak kacau hidup papa' Sarah cakap!.

At kedai:: Idris and Sarah at e133 while sofea and mummy at F115. Bila makan je jumpa lepas tu masing masing at kedai. Papa tengah list stock shortage tuk order. Me check email, check web, check fb and lepas tu dah terbawak bawak dengan benda lain. Sempat lak nak blog. Baca Twitter, Some of artis Indonesia juga ade yang berfikiran sungguh cetek. Xkan la pasal laser kamu kalah, jumpa bomoh.OMG please la jangan la give me a impression you are so shallow to believe this provocasion!!.Bca forum pun sama..ah persetankan mereka yang berfikiran lemah begitu. Tapi kelakar juga..memasing sibuk menghina tidak sedar, mereka itu sama...ahahah.. in every country you have the same level or people with the same level of IQ,and when they meet up in forums this is what happen.Provocations!! sudah sudah la..sebab sama rumpun maka timbul la x puas hati. jadi apa heran. Ada juga warga Indonesia yang x suka this blabering.iya kan?? Nasib la artis lelaki kamu Hots..kalau x...hohoho!!

Bosan with Forum bukak HItz..dengar balik gotcha call. Fredo and chino memang rowks habis..kelakr gila nye..ahaha i can listen to them all day. Well sofea bangun nak susu. sarah dah naik ni and kejap lagi husband nak check kerja dia lak..so bye for now my belog-tempat meluahkan semua!!

::The Ship has Sail. SO much for FriendShip::

So much for friendship. Friend la sangat.
Xdela aku heran pun x dijemput. Cuma terkesima [waa perkataan] bila orang yang rapat rapat, ketat ketat ngan kau pun x tahu, x dijemput. So much for friendship.
Kot ye pun xleh nak jemput semua, cakap pun xpela..ni dengar dari orang lain. terasa kan.
But it seems.[kat fb la] ramai sangat yang tidak tahu, tidak dijemput..hoh...huiks..

Yela..selama ni mungkin ada yang rasa ' buddies sangat', sahabat. yela dah lama kenal. lepak sama, makan sama, pernah di perantauan sama sama..lama tu..3 tahun..alih alih benda cam ni important xde bagitau.
Ku sangka aku ni permata, rupanya pada mu aku ni kaca. [waa emotional sangat lak]

antara quote aku dapat::

::KIta mana standard ngan kawan *** dia ::
:: Sejak dia study kat *** dia dah x contact lupa kawan::
::Kalau dia macam tu, sudah la xmo lagi waste time amik tahu pasal dia::

Tapi kita x tahu kan dia nye side of the story. Xpela nanti satu hari tahu juga. [mamarazi ku sentiasa berkerja untuk berita sensasi].maybe dia ade valid reason. To dia, all the best melayari hari hari berkeluarga ya. Semoga hidup dipenuhi dengan orang orang yang sentiasa ingat akan kamu. Ahahha..sumpah kalau disebabkan ego dia x ajak. if i ever see him sumpah aku buat x kenal. dan kalau dia senyum kat aku....aku akan toleh ke arah lain.Kecik hati mak nyah!~~~

To me, when i look around i still see some of those faces i loves so much. At this age masih setia menemani. Itula sahabat, itu la kawan. Itula kawan kawan yang patut aku simpan.Some pula bila nak favour je ada, ahah itu pun kawan tapi xdela kawan 'ketat ketat'. Hargai at least dia rasa aku leh tolong dia,dia mengharap juga kat aku kan. Apa la nak kira kawan. Cuma yang bila nak favour ade pastu puff  buat x kenal. Sampai hati..

:: Look up kat wiki. Favourite explanation::

Fair-weather friend atau kawan cuaca baik: Seorang yang hanya akan membantu kawannya apabila perbantuan itu tidak susah.
Best friend atau "kawan karib": Kawan yang seseorang berasa paling rapat. Istilah ini biasanya membayangkan perasaan salingan antara satu sama lain, tetapi ini tidak selalu berlaku dan hubungan kawan karib merupakan sesuatu perkara yang sangat rumit.
True friend atau "kawan benar": Orang yang sudi membantu kawan-kawannya yang menghadapi masalah emosi. Istilah ini juga menandakan sebahagian besar altruisme kerana seorang kawan benar seringnya akan mengorbankan masa atau sumber yang lain untuk membantu kawan mereka yang menghadapi kesusahan. Walaupun demikian, kawan benar seringnya jarang ditemui dan mereka tidak semestinya merupakan kawan karib anda tetapi seorang yang anda ketahui akan membantu anda apabila diperlukan.

~~ I wanna be a True friend..i'll try..its Like BFF F..woo!~~

ps:: jauh tu duk di perantauan. Kat pulau..betul betul dipulaukan. your friend is all you got. Kalau xda kawan sana mati woo..family jauh...

::New Year's cleaning up my brain's closet::

" A person who works hard and succeed , that is his glory, a person who succeed without hard work is only leeching of someone elses hard work"

Betul juga maknanyakan. Kalau someone itu usaha bila berjaya itula kecermelangan dia. Tapi kalau orang itu x berusaha dan berjaya terus means ade la orang lain yang berusaha untuk kejayaan dia.

Contoh la:: A berkerja keras nak jadi CEO sebuah company terkemuka SKRU holdings la konon. Dia mula dari kerja paling teruk skali. Mungkin pencacai angkat najis ke [dari citer P Ramlee ni pinjam]. Dia berusaha sampai la dia jadi CEO Bila dipandang balik, ade la story nak dicerita kepada anak anak kelak kan. dia diapandang tinggi x? Mestila..someone dari xde apa jadi ada apa. B pulak nak jadi manager, baru 1st job. xde experience. X Fresh lagi la ni katakan.Dia kenal A maka A pun tarik dia jadi Manager SKRU Holdings. Waa..itu makna dia x berusaha tapi dia berjaya atas usaha someone else. Betul x?

Contoh la::  C pergi belajar, study sampai mata kena pakai spec mata sebab banyak baca buku.graduate then carik kerja. Dapat la kerja. Lama lama stabil, confirm and lepas tu dia kawin and ade family and sebagainya. D kawan C, dia x study sebab dia orang kaya raya. Bapak dia owner SKRU holding maka automaticnya dia la waris. Tapi dia x pandai nak handle company sebab tu dia amik C jadi Manager dia. Company stabil and kaya raya. D dapat nama tapi semua itu usaha C. "Lembu punya susu sapi dapat nama". Samala tu kan cam kata kata atas.

Tapi, ade orang ade pilihan ade orang xde. Some people born to struggle and then suceed.Some people are just pure winners. ye ke winners?Some people family dia dah berusaha untuk bagi dia a life he could only get with hard work. EMpire la..jadi bila dah jadi waris empayar dah tentu dia kena take over. Jika tidak. sia sia je kan usaha family dia and hancurla empire tu. Dia tiada pilihan. Tapi dia boleh buat perubahan and majukan lagi. That would be his hardwork then glory is his. Tapi kalau takat take over and tak buat apa..LEECHING.

New year ni aku fikir. aku nak berada di mana. the one who struggles madly or the one who leech and suceed.??or i can be the one who leech and suceed and then do more and that would be my glory?...of course i choose A. I wanna struggle and then take my glory!New year. its time to clear your mind, put in new thoughts with more effort and positive vibes.

ps:: baru lepas makan 2 burger, 1 cup of cold mirinda strawberry, 1 slice of cheesecake and cold water. Mau xleh tido sampai pagi ni.

:: Blabbering on Xmas Evening::

Hohoho merry Xmas!Semangat 1 malaysia la ni. Sejuk ni di Melaka. Berangan Salji [ mode berangan:: tengah buat snowman kat luar...] ah hujan lebat gila ok.Ahahah..for my family its just an escape from being elsewhere and come home..[mode nyanyi lagi:: i'm coming home, to the place where i belong]. Mom just take this opputernity to cook all the christmas dish for us.I think she miss having christmas supper and dinner and she misses cooking her dishes. Food that she use to have when she was a lil girl. Well we support her anyway who can say no to FOOD [memang patutla ko jadi makin gemuk Maria oi] And we come back to enjoy. Just a reason to gather 1 family, laughing, be mad, be all out..be...the Kardashians [ waa melampau dorang tu xleh ikut..tut!~tutt!~]..

Kalau Kardashians jugak sesuai sebab mereka 3 girls satu boy. Sama la.Jangan kira la Kendall n Kylie sebab dorang bukan Kardashian. Ikut giliran aku la Khloe tapi aku rasa dari watak.Zura tu la Khloe. Biarla aku jadi Kourtney. Ahahaha..berangan pulak. [sebab aku baru lepas tengok d Kardashians.mereka tu orang Armenia kamu tau].

Ari ni mom masak roast chicken..[nak carik turkey mahal and besar, nanti x habis sudah], sheperds pie, chocolate cake [my all time favourite],Feng [ satu portugesse dish best woo] apple pie, i am making my bread puding, salad and ntah la apa lagi mommy buat ni. banyak sangat. Ade yang jadi santa clause malam ni [psss:: idris la tu].

well dah lama dah x blog. Material ada masa xde. My laptop pun lom balik so pakai Idris nye ni banyak gadjet tade..bosan hek...[ceh cam la banyak sangat gadjet ko pakai maria]. xdela feel tu xde bila bukan laptop sendirik.Nantila update bout my friends visit, bout my 2 lil rugrats and what else that i nak remember and kasi Sarah and sofea baca bila besar nanti.

ps:: btw all the food is Halal ok..dun worry!

:: My Birthday Blog::

Some people freak out when they grow a year older. I dont, for me age is age, age is just a number, is how young your heart and minds are. Some people can be 60 but active and stunning. Why? cause they dont let age get in they way. Yes its my 29th birthday. Yeay me!! The older the wiser..

 This is a new year for me. I think new year for each one of us starts on  our birthday as he allows us to still be alive, or renew our license to be on his earth before he comes and takes us away.. Not 1 Jan, unless you were born on January 1st. I thank ALLAH for allowing me to have my breath till today, to take care of my 2 children and the wonderfull family and friends that i have * without you i am not me*.

Some ask me what i wanna do for my birthday? Party? Cake? Nah~~ i had enough of those days. Being just Me without any hassle would be fun.. It has been 29 years. I had enough of doing things. Like the year before. From the moment i became a mum, i dedicate my birthday wishes and thoghts or presents to my Mum and Dad for without them i would not be here, would not be who i am, would not be happy as i am.

* I love you Mummy & Papa, thank you for bringing me to this would and extra 12 years more looking on me teaching me about life one step at a time. I hope i'll be there always to guide Sarah & Sofea like you did for me*

Well at this day, i thought about my parents. Termenung jauh. I am the 1st born. This is the day i came to the world and made them parents. They felt what i felt when i had Sarah. Maybe this is what mommy thinks each year. Like me, On Sarah's birthday. i am always reminded of how i delivered her, the people around me, the wheather dat day,the surroundings, the pain i went through, how she made her debut* Tears dropping* Its so heartwarming to hold your baby in your arms, the excitement and the pleasure, the happiness it brings. It keeps on playing in my head. Maybe that is what mommy feels too. Now i understand. as i am a mum now, i really appreciate she having me. I cannot thank her. There is no words to express my gratitude for the pengorbanan she went through..a decision she made * i am gonna have you and love you all my life, to protect you and be there when you fall*. Thanks Mummy.

So happy birthday Me, take good care of yourself Maria, be nicer to people around you. Look around you, and those friends who are still there at this age is the friends that you keep cause they are your true friends. Look into your life, make amends with people you never know when is your last birthday!! be gratefull for what you have. Never complaint. God has been nice to you, so you be good okay.Yeah i have no career. There are some things i regret doing and some thing i regret not doing..But to compliment that, i have a great family.I have friends who makes me smile and there when i slip a step down..life has it ups and downs. you can always be on the top!!..hey you..yeah i envy you with what you have, a job to be proud of. Maybe i shud get one if its not too late. This is my path, i made the decision. No regrets..

::happy birthday Me..yeay!!::

::Converse is in Town::

::Level 1 @ MP::

:: Yeah!! Today teman Idris kat DP. Shoot some pictures for the web. Urgh..lapar. Pergi MP makan kat FC. [huh penuh short forms aku ari ni]. Well lepas makan turun ke bawah. Skali terpandang ini [lihat di atas]. Yeahh looks like CONVERSE has come to town for Xmas. Seronoknya. Its like my favourite Brand Outlet. Saya Suka Converse!!!

Cintaku juga berkongsi minat yang sama. Jadi kami pun decide to walk up and take a look la. Kasut kasut ka, baju ka, tapi was disapointed sikit. X banyak collection and kebanyakkan dah  lama. Not that up to date. Ke aku yang x up to date. Mana mana la pun. X attractive langsung barang dia. Decide to buy one Everlast white shoe. Pasni nak suh Wan buat artwork dia kat shoe ni. Ehehehe...::

::" My Master Chef"::

::Look at the gorgeous pudding::
-Pic Courtesy of Z n Alice-

:: Vanilla Sauce by Zakiah konon nye jadi Vanilla Paste.Remember ya cooking custard cannot lama lama
and have to always stir..kejapan aku tinggal jadi pekat.Ish..::

:: Puding baked, prepared by Alice and Zakiah::

Full Set. Yeah orang makan tuk b/fest kami makan tuk supper

Creamy and yummy, its very easy..Recipe found by Zakiah

:: Last Saturday 2 of my Buddies came down from KL, all the way from KL to make bread pudding and fried ice cream. Can you believe it!!..Anyway i really had fun with them. SOOOOOOOO much in such a LONGGGGGGG Time. Thanks you guys. Can always count on you guys for some laughs. There are some more pictures to be uploaded. But i just wanna post this gorgeus bread pudding made by Us.

 Yeah and our MasterChef for the day was Zakiah Musa. She was like The Hell's Kitchen Guy in masterchef directing us on what to do and approving our actions. Chewahh..resipi Internet je cik kak.xde la payah sangat..ahahahah. But it was fun. And we even topped it with Vanilla Sauce. Wow what great wives we will be. Imagine that. Anyway, wishing they will come again to experiment with other recipes. and girls bring some guys over to accompany my hubby and be judges to our cooking yeah!!::

ps:: I had fun, Sarah & Sofea had fun, Idris felt Girlie...ahahaha...

::SelKom SeNgal::

Argh tension sungguh dengan Selkom 2, 3 hari ni. Selama seminggu dia bermasalah tapi tak la seteruk 2,3 hari ini. Susah gila. Nak authenticate je dah sampai 30 minit. Macam tunggu buat pasport kat Immigresen.Gila punya lama.Dah tu kejap kejap dc. sampaikan aku nak blog ni pun dia masih dc dc lagi. Xde ke ko rasa nak baling je something to someone.Dah le di ketika aku dapat modem dia buat hal lak. Masa ngan Idris x nak lak buat hal. In my hand sangat la selkom. Boleh lak kalau ko lalu lalang kat pavement mana mana kiosk dia, mati matian nak offer ko amik and ckap korang the best. hah offer la ramai orang pastu service cam sengal. Bila la P1W1MAX nak sampai Melaka...ke apa apa la yang ade kat KL and JB tu nak sampai sini.

 Officially you are Selkom Sengal..Crap, Crappier Crappiest service. Maxis yang susah nak ade line kat rumah mak aku tu broadband dia lagi okay. Hapela...please la ..

:: Boredom?Busy??::

Sungguh aku BZ? Bz sangat ke aku?
Tade la busy sangat, but occupied, penat.

Sian kawan aku Zakiah. Dah berapa kali aku cakap nak chat ngan dia malam. Penat dia tunggu aku, xde.siang tunggu aku xde. Bila aku ade dia demam lak.Maybe sebab dia x dapat chat ngan aku kot. Hohoh [mode:: perasan].Neway lastly dapat jugak aku chat ngan dia Jumaat, 11 December waktu orang g solat Jumaat. Dia baru lepas bangun tido. Asyik sungguh ko kan Zakiah tido time orang g Solat. Xpela lepas jugak hajat aku. Apa aku nak citer..ahah Pasal Wie Wie. aku jumpa pic dia. Sumer kata x sama tapi aku tahu Zakiah mesti ingat punya. Dia mana mana orang dia ingat. Kalau tidak masakan dia itu Paparazi terkemuka satu tika dulu [skang dah pencen sebab kerja mahkamah].

Kebelakangan ini xde benda yang menarik. Biasa biasa je.Hidup terlalu rutin. Sampai kekadang aku rasa dalam tido pun leh buat kerja. [waa berlagak punya]. Xdela ade la jugak happenings..tapi malas nak citer jer. Satunya kolam pancing ikan kat belakang rumah dah bukak. Kepada sesiapa yang minat mancing boleh la ke sini. Gila punya ramai. Keta parking sampai celah celah rumah orang pun ade. Nasib la bukan depan rumah aku. If x...hohoh mesti husband aku bising.

 Sofea Hannah dah botak.Cukur..Dah macam G.I Jane. Tapi luckily she has feminine looks jugak la. Xde la nampak boy sangat. Sarah dulu mmg muka rough sikit. Lasak dia ni lembut. Ah tapi dalam lembut kecik kecik dah nakal. Temper sangat la. What i can say is. Sofea ni cerah, ntah la ikut belah mana. Cerah dari aku [of coznye la mak hai], cerah dari kakak dia and also Papa dia. Amazingly !!!. Bila kena lots of sun dia akan naik ruam panas and merah merah muka dia. Kena sejuk je. Cam tu kena letak dia dalam peti ais je..xde pun duduk alaska ke mana.Mata dia nak sayu je tapi jangan tertipu dia ni agak nakal...and dia dah kenal orang dah. Dia tahu mommy dia, kakak dia and papa dia. Buktinya bila Idris balik dan panggil nama dia, dia akan pusing carik suara idris and senyum sampai la ke telinga..pastu ber gugu -gaga.Tido nak berteman..nak duduk bawak ketiak aku je. Cramp leher aku malam. Kiri Sofea kanan Sarah...[hmm anak is a joyous part of life but it is also hetic]

::My Soft heart::

''‎16 years from today, you came into this world and brought soo.... much joy to Daddy and Me. We may have not told you this but we are both very proud of you that you're all grown up now and turned out to be a gentle and respectful boy. My love for you is unconditional, but pretty soon you'll find that special someone to... love and care for you and you won't need me as much.... but until then I'll cherish every moment loving you, caring for you , doing things for you for as long as I can."

Wish kat atas tu betul menyentuh hati. Terfikir pasal mak aku pulak. Begini dia rasakan agaknya. Cuma dia tidak mengucapkan FB cam mommy budak ini.  Part yang highlight tu made me stop and think. and i felt a soft spot in my heart. Rasa nak go and peluk mommy.

Since i found my other half, maybe this is what she feels.
Since i found my children which another part of my life, maybe this is how she feels.

Satu masa dulu, aku is everything to her. She gave her all for me. like i do for my children. But she know that one day or another she will fade from our lifes.She never mention. and when i found him she just gave way for him to love me more and she just look on. Still she was always there for me, to catch my fall when he was not expecting my fall..thanks mum. she is the best mom ever. Though sometimes i feel mad about her ways. but i realise, she is getting old, her ways and my ways dont co-ordinate cause of the age Gap. I have ton down now after my pregnancy. I have realise my mistake before. But she understood. Mom, never from my heart Mom. Never..will you fade from my heart till the day i die, till the day i draw my last breath.

I love you mom! Love you so much. Tepilah Idris , You sibuk je come in my life and skang i rasa mcm ni!...

::Blogging Frenzy::

Tengah think, shud i or shud i not.
Just seperate blog pasal Sarah & Sofea to another blog or just continue here.
Banyak blog pun leceh kan. Tapi xnak campur aduk children with personal..ntahla tengok la keputusan tu nanti.

Neway today Sofea pergi checkup. Hah kena cucuk kat peha dia. Dah la dia nak terlelap setelah bangun pukul 7 pagi. Baru nak lelap kena cucuk. Marah la dia. Sedu sedan dia keluar klinik tu. Marah pun ye. Bising mulut dia..marah.

::Sofea Hannah::

Hah lepas check. didapati::

•  Sofea skang ni 4.2 kg iaitu sekilo lebih dari dia lahir.
• 55 Cm means dia dah membesar sebanyak 5 cm sebulan. Tinggi dia ni dari Sarah nanti.
• Lilitan kepala 36 cm . 3 cm lebih dari lahir
• Dada 38 cm. Aku x sure la baper lak sbb nurse tu x cakap dah.

Haha..Sarah pulak kat rumah mommy sebab ui had very bad headache. Cam kepala nak pecah. Doctor kata kepala stress.Urat x cukup tido semua. Yesla kan aku dah bilang dong dari awal. Satu anak jaga malam satu siang bukan kerja mudah!!..So dia bagi aku ubat relax. Makan terus dalam lena gila.kepala sejuk je.apakah ubat itu!! Idris cakap itu ubat orang gila. ye la aku gila aku je x betul..punca dia lupa agaknya.Ahahahha kan kena balik kat batang hidung u yang tajam tu!.

Neway Sarah tido rumah mom, lagipun zura and wan balik ari sabtu. puas la dia bermanja and cam heaven la. Apa dia nak dilayankan. sampai lupa aku..standard la Sarah. Sian jugak dia..xde orang pay attention. Aku tgk je dia main sorang..panggil tiada menyahut dia main sendiri.Sorry sayang. Hanya aku je panggil dia, tapi dia x nak lak datang kat aku.

:: Remind me Of::

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Courtesy of Google.com

Courtesy of Google.com

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Actor atas ni ialah Jay Baruchel.

Dia pernah berlakon Movie cam, Knocked Up, Soccerers Apprentice, Tropic Thunder,She's out of My league, Night at The Musuem 2, banyak lagi la

Ntah kenapa just nak cakap, dia ni reminds me of a College friend

Tommy Dieh.

Courtesy of Tommy's FB

Courtesy of Tommy's FB

::SeCret-OnE RePuBLiC::

I need another story,Something to get off my chest

My life gets kind of boring,Need something that i can confess

Till all my sleeves are stained red,From all the truth that I've said

Come by it honestly I swear

Thought you saw me wink, no, I've been on the brink, so

[CHORUS]

Tell me what you want to hear,Something that were like those years

I'm sick of all the insincere

So I'm gonna give all my secrets away,This time, Don't need another perfect lie

Don't care if critics ever jump in line,I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far

It's like were chasing all those stars,Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news,All the problems we could solve

And when a situation rises

Just write it into an album

Singing straight to cold,I don't really like my flow, no, so

[CHORUS]

Got no reason,Got no shame,Got no family

I can blame

Just don't let me disappear,I'ma tell you everything

[CHORUS x2]

PS: Ini Lagu yang ke'December'an aahah. Stuck in my head for 3 hari dah..ketuk ketuk pun x nak padam!!

::Kacak di mata Wanita::

::::Kawaii?..Means kacak, comel, cantik in Japaneese. Thanks to Zakiah for teaching me what Kawaii means. Well i googled it jugak. It all started bila Zakiah said, Yamashita Tomohisa itu Kawaii. Kawaii ke Zakiah? Jadi Kawaii?? It means Cute, 'Shomel shomel', Kacak in Japanesse. Thanks to Zakiah la ajar aku and i have look it up lagik..ahahaha. Ntah kenapa when say Kawaii aku teringat Kawasaki Ninja -Satu lagi product Jepun [cam Iklan]. Motor yang Kawaii. Maybe sebab 1)  Dua dua mula dengan huruf  'K'. 2) Bunyi nak dekat sama kot!~
Well ini sebab Z or Zakiah cakap Yamashita Tomohisa  tu Kacak.Kacak ke Z? Cam gegerl je dia ni. Mula mula aku pun confuse jugak. Laki ke perempuan dia ni. ahaha..So Marila kita lihat antara mereka yang 'Frens' saya ni rasa kacak.

:: Yamashita Tomohisa yang Zakiah tergilakan.Cam gegerl.Tapi apa kurangnya anak aku pun suka Jopun..haish..ni ikut god'ma dia ni la...::

:: Hah AZ(Anuar Zain) ade kawan aku dari study lagi minat dia ni. Aku pun pernah la doakan mana tahu dia kawin jugak ngan AZ ni. Tapi aku rasa husband dia skang ni lagi Kawaii dari AZ. AZ ni suara je Kawaii kan kan kan..

::Jeng jeng Arjun  Rampal. Wah ada kawan aku minat dia ni. Aku pun x kenal dia ni sampaikan kawan aku tu mention. Haoahaha..bagi peminat Hindustan. ::

::Teuku Zacky Azwar. Yes ni yang aku rasa Kawaii. Bila tengok dia mata ade hati hati bintang kelam kelip.ahahahha..cam kartun laka ku ni. Anyway..wife dia pun Cantik gak sama padan. Sila lihat di bawah::

::Ilmira wife TZA, hah cantik kan. Sama padan ye x. Model Uzbekistan.Dah ada anak sorang dah diorang ni.Zio. takpe nanti aku kawinkan Zio ngan Sofea la.sebab dorang nak dekat sebaya::

::Edward Cullen or Robert Pattinson. Biasala vampire of the decade ni kan ramai gila minat. Pada aku biasa je dia. Cam muka tahan nak berak pun ada. Aku lagi suka Jake tapi kekadang minat jugak dia ni bila dia cool Argh dun ask me aku confuse..TZA TZA TZA MIA MIA MIA::

::Jacob Black/Taylor Lautner. Memang terbukti kekacakan dia kan. SO x payah elaborate.50% of kawan aku yang aku tanya suka kat dia. SO ramai lagi team Jacob dari Edward. Sian Edward. Ok la aku team dia la..::

Tapi what ever pun pada aku yang paling Kawaii, yang boleh buat aku tergelak, ketawa, menjerit, marah, bengang, Histeria, gila bayang, angin satu badan, is the person below ahahaha...

:: hah ini dia..My Beloved Husband MIA-Mohamed Idris Angullia. Jan if u baca blog ni jangan over okay..::

Ps:: masa tulis blog ni sempat lagi tgk citer New Moon kat Dvd dengan Idris.. sebab teringat kat Jacob!! Ahahahah...

::::When December Kicks In:::

::My 1st blog on my Favourite Month. Everytime December kikcs in i feel like wanna go WeAhaHAhahwooot woot...Why aku suka this month isss because..

1. Its marks the end of the year. Masa sekolah time ni la cuti. Now it means its gonna be a beginning of a nu-yer so new things and new me ahead (kononla azam) so let this me be all out.
2. Bulan yang romantic aku rasa sebab in this month, people go holiday with family and frens. Spend time kat rumah more.Yela nak habiskan cuti la, time orang orang kawin and g honeymoon. Banyakkan org kawin.
3. Its the end of the year..YES la YES. YEar End Sale.
4. The wheather is always right with me. Its not always hot not always cold. Kalau panas pun angin sejuk. Give me a reason to put on a thick jacket cam ala ala kat Overseas...cam ala ala Xmas. Yes and kat melaka ni..everywhere is in Santa MODE..HoHoHOhOhO...
5. I wish for Snow.

Well i have lots of blog to post.Suddenly mind cam ade je benda nak tulis. Ade jugak post yang aku delete and nak repost. Last time masa 'muda muda' at this point of time prob getting ready to head South to Singapore for holidays with cousin. Travelling or going back to 'Kampung' lepak with my 2 twin cousins. Now dah besar. Each of us have our own family. So things will be differ. Will create something differ from this year onwards with Yaya and Sofea.

ps:: I am just loving it.

::Dunia ni Kecik, Internet ni Magic::

its amazing what a click of a mouse could do. and how unsafe information on the net Are. yes it is. google it and Walla its there.

Today, Nenek akak Lily tag us in a photoshot or someone's resume. But it was not just a resume or just for laughs. Stated on the resume is someones name that we have been talking about once in a blue moon. Have been wondering where the hell she has been, had been imagining how wud she look like. Ahak..puzzled, betul ke this person is the same person as the one we have in mind So i decided to call. Berani konon@! Dalam hati, 'seram sabtu' Butterflies in the tummy. Tapi after 1st call x angkat jadi makin berani.wahaha..

After 2sms dia call balik. WaH eureka..!! Betul la this is the same person. I was shocked, amaze too. Maybe its a sign to make amends. In so many ways of finding her, we found her in the weirdest way. She sounds the same but i dunno how she look. Was i the only one excited. Ahaha..and i google and Dunia ni kecik, internet ni magic. i found her pic. chubby bit now, not like before but i could spot the similarities..Ah..x sangka...after 10 years ade lagi hidup juga kau!!..

::Rapunzel a Tangled Tale::

::Rapunzel::

Rating:: 7 /10 stars

Nice story, well its a cartoon can be enjoyed by children age 6 and above right up to adults.  Bawah 6 maybe dorang x enjoy sangat sebab banyak dialog dari animated animals. Biasala budak kecik nak duduk diam tgk dialog bukan faham pun. Trust me i brought a toddler to the show and she ask me a dozen of a dozen questions.But this muvee is not the fairy tale version as in the book or told by our mummies and daddies. A bit of a twist and turn and it turn out fun.

Overall:: aBout a ray of sun drop to earh into a magical flower  with healing powers which was found by this old lady who wanted to always be young. Flower was use to heal queen during labour resulting the birth of Rapunzel with hair gleaming like the sun. The old lady kidnaped the baby to keep as her own as when she combs Rapunzels hair and sing she becomes younger (flower effect turn to hair now). As years go by, hair grown long and kept in a tower so high, Rapunzel never sets foot out. Meanwhile the part of a charming prince is potrayed by a handsome thief who stole the 'missings princess crown' was hunted by the castle guards stumble upon the tower and thats how he met rapunzel. Not by asking her to let down her hair but by climbing up to the tower.

Rapunzel who was gonna turn 18 was so eager to go out and venture to the world but her mom ( the old lady) diasproved it. So she ask this handsome thief to show her around in exchange of the stolen crown which rapunzel found in the satchel of the thiefs bag and she hid it well. Along the journey the fell in love and bla bla bla. Ending at last she realise she is the missing princess and went back to the kingdom and live hapily ever after. Wat a cliche...

Neway go with a kid. On your own, you wont enjoy it.



::26 days are over::

Just now dem sleepy. Now wide awake. Ni semua Idris la ni. Jelous la tu aku sudah in a slimmer figure than him. Stuff me with Nasi Ayam and Burger at 10pm is a very evil attempt to make sure my celulite grow. Apa la suh diet dun wan abih..suh pregnant xleh pulak..abih? Ouh lupa nak bengkung..malas la pulak. Sleep like a mummie with the bengkung.

Sarah Daania came home at last. After 2 wonderfull joyous day with her grandparents she return to the arms of her mom and dad after wailing for 20 minutes in the car. We had to create stories to keep her quiet. Not good parenting eh? Sofea Hannah is 26 days and she has her 'perangai' already. Not giving in, but she is very determine to get her way. So far. Its only fair that you are a baby so we give in a bit.

Came back exhausted. Met lot of people in DP. Some were shocked that i am out and about. Some didnt know, thought that i was over my pantang. Shhh why have to tell diam sudah la.xde orang tanya la Jan!! Some didnt even know i was pregnant (kes dah lama x jumpa pastu terjumpa balik). Macam macam la..window shopping dah jadi cam forum kekadang. Seronok jugak jumpa orang.
Came back sleepy and tired. Husband handles older daughter me and the baby. Both of them side by side on the bed getting changed for bed. Husband making elder to sleep while i feeding baby and rocking her to sleep. Huh at last, all of them asleep and i feel bloated. Ish...rasa cam nak makan lagi. OMG perut dah expand balik. Penat je reprogram perut x nak makan banyak..Ala Jan u!!!

:: Kambing betul!!...Kantoi::

Hah entry saja saja. Today g kedai cause nak kena update Sales and Log (dah nak hujung bulan kan?) and kena wat some kerja with  para Jejaka kat Kedai ni. Anywhoooo today Husband ade customer buat Dreadlocks dari Jakarta. Ah husband cakap, come u nak ikut dia g carik ur favourite Actor tu tanya la dia. Ish gila dia ni. Kang aku betul ikut dia balik sana kan..Ohh x sanggup..tgk boleh ikut x mo!!..

Anyway, budak ini rambut dia kembang afro ala ala Marcell gitu muka dia, putih tinggi. Ah cakap dia sebijik cam Sinetron Indonesia.Bla bla bla bla..bla bla bla..berlagu!! Ah suka bangat aku dengar!..Jadi bila dia cakap aku kerling dari Desk aku tu sambil tersenyum agaknya.(Ish Maria maluuuuuuuuunyaaaaa). " Kamu suka ya cara aku bicara?Gaya sinetron bawang putih bawang merah?"(something like dat la dia cakap sbb aku x tak pandang muka dia so aku x dgr sangat). Ah??What?? dia cakap ngan aku ker? Asal lak tiba tiba? Husband aku senyum..Kambing punya husband bikin aku  malu. Dia pergi story ngan budak tu pasal 'phase' aku tu asal. Aku bagi jeling maut Satria Baja Hitam kat husband aku. Jaga u..waitla satu hari nanti i kenakan u balik.

Budak itu senyum comey!! Aku cuma boleh buat buat bz kat laptop. Sengal!! aku nak balik la cam ni. Nasib la 8 jam budak ni kat sini husband aku akan ada fiesta ngusik aku.! Ceh..tapi xpe..berkawan biar beribu ribu batu jauh so that apa apa lepas ni x jumpa depan depan lagi. Ahaks...(sengal punya peribahasa)

ps:: Sudah melepasi phase itu juga akhirnya?!~~

::A day with Sarah Daania::

 

My Lil Sofea Hannah



Hah ari ni Mummy agree jaga Sofea Hannah. Waa baru 22 hari sudah kena tinggal. Xpe girl nanti u independent. Hari ni spend time ngan Sarah Daania. Kena adil, fair gitu. Tade nanti dia mesti merajuk hati terasa. Dah slalu kena tinggal x pergi mana mana. Sian my older doter ni. Aha takpe today mommy bawak you jalan kan kan kan.. Happy Sangat Sarah. Waa bukan senang eh nak jadi mum yang fair and lovely (erk cam product kecantikan). Kalau aku ade 5 ke 6. Satu hari satu kot. Woo xdela...skang ni aku lom pandai lagi nak handle kiri kanan. Nanti kalau dah terer..KAWAN KAWAN @ KL, JB here i come!!!... tapi itu pun kalau Husband aku kasik la. Sebab bawak princessss dia ni bukan senang. Banyak No and Donts hokay. Bini dia lain, dia tahu dah nak handle camana..ahahahah..

My day starts
845am.:: bila Sofea bangun sebab dia buat Bisnes banyak sangat dalam pampers..senyum2 dia bila aku wash her up. Lepas tu aku mandikan. Terus dia gapai baju aku..ah x suka air eh..nak jadi apa? x suka mandi cam PAPA..hehehehe... memandangkan awal gila..so aku kejut Sarah pulak mandi and siap. Last baru aku lepas gosok baju husband and buat air for dia. Slalu aku jugak yang last. Pastu aku jugak terkejar nak siap. Not fair..tapi xpe..ari ni tetap okay. So sms Mummy tanya boleh tak switch. tinggal kan Sofea Hannah...Mum kata ok tapi balik before 4pm

1130 am:: Lepas drop baby Sofea.Ikut Idris terus g kedai. nak rush for movie kul 12.30. Hah sempat sbb sampai kul 1150. Sarah dah x sabar nak tengok Rapunzel. Terus naik tingkat 5 GSC amik reservation ticks. Pastu nak turun Sarah nak beli PC ngan Coke lak [popcorn-PC]. Nak turun balik malas so duduk la kat lounge sambil makan 1902 hotdog. Ah sedapnye feveret. Belum masuk cine lagi dah habis dah sumer snack. Camana ni Sarah?? seperti ku jangka jawapan dia sweet and simple. Buy some more la mother. X payah hyper ko nanti. Cine kami Cine 2 seat H01 and H02.

12.15:: Masuk cine. Sarah tanya banyak soklan dah. Cam wartawan nak masuk room nak interview Artis. So aku cakap dia, Sarah dalam tu kena diam okay. Cam biasa u jangan cakap kuat kuat. Hmmm warning aku tu cuma bazir air liur je. Lepas jumpa seat duduk, mula la she get on my nerve.Bila nak start mother? cerita apa mother? why kerusi ni macam ni mother? u sejuk x mother? i nak jalan here and there..and etc. Banyak sangat. Aku just buat pekak je jawab selamber. Kang kalau aku buat x kenal pulak sian anak aku.

12.30: Rapunzel start. Best jugak la..aku pun layan. Sarah dapat bertahan for 1st half an hour diam tanpa soklan. Lepas tu banyak la soklan dia. Kalau aku x jawab, dia akan repeat dialog dalam citer tu yang mana senang and catchy. org depan aku gelakkan dia lagi. Aku pun x tahu dia amused ngan sarah ke cerita tu sebab kejap kejap dia toleh ketawa. Gila kot.

200pm:: habis cerita, turun ke kedai PAPA POPIA. G lunch sama sama. Seronok la SArah sebab lepas ni nak bawak dia naik bas Panorama balik. Sambil nyanyi n semangat gila tunggu bas. Tade citer langsung pasal baby adik. Its all about her. Seronok gila. Smpai central tengah switch bus mommy call. Sofea tercekik x sudah... mommy cemas. Sarah yang tgh bebel ngan aku, aku suh diam. Sedey dia. Kenapa mother? baby adik why? aku cakap xdeapa. Sian dia potong thrill dia. lepas tu dia x nak cakap. Kesian sayang aku ni. Kecik hati dia. It suppose to be about her. aku pujuk ngan tiket bus dia start balik bla bla bla. Aku rasa kalau dia diam je yang aku risau. Biar dia bising so aku tahu dia ok.

Sampai rumah PAPA pun sampai. Aik..penat aku naik bus.xpela Sarah suka. Lepas lepak rumah Mommy kejap. Petng tu bawak dia g 'seven leven' Ah belikan dia ' slorpee' feveret dia. Emerald!! pastu balik. Mandikan Sofea and Sarah. Sofea tido lepak with sarah. Suka dia sambil baring tgk tv. tahu dia suka aku duduk ngan dia tgk tv cam old days. Sebab bila aku dalam bilk ngan Sofea dia akan ajak. Come la mother tengok ultraman ni with me come la..come come. Nampak la dia nak attention and jugak rindu times kitorg bergolek depan TV. Aha so malam ni aku dgn dia tgk citer kum kum. Result dia aku sorok belakang dia. Seram siut!!!...

Mommy's Lil Angel



Sarah mommy sayang YOu...

:: PPD ke aku??::

Er..pernah x dengar pasal postpartum depression or post natal depression. Aku slalu dengar mat saleh2 barat tu hidap benda alah cam ni. Kat mesia ni pun ade cuma not that obvious. Kadang agaknya x tahu we are having post natal depersion sebab minor sangat. Lagipun kat sini banyak pantang larang and family jaga so xdela sangat.

PPD or Post natal depression ni di alami oleh org baru lepas bersalin and 1st time Fathers. Tapi ibu ibu ni lepas beranak je, x kira la baper kali. yang 1st lagi la berisiko are prone to PPD. Ni disebabkan, placenta yang masa kita ngandung merupakan 'kilang hormon' kita dah dikeluarkan. Jadi production hormon tu berhenti seketika. Itu yang buat kita imbalance, depress, sedey ala something like meroyan kot..i pun dunno wat is meroyan tapi org kata meroyan tu gila..ini x gila.cuma imbalance...


Simpton dia is macam, sedey, nangis x tentu.,selera makan x tentu (ah ni pun ade jugak) kadang benda kecik pun sensitif, rasa x yakin nak jaga baby,rasa x yakin with diri sendiri, rasa diri ni x berguna, low self esteem la...rasa cam banyak kurang in your relationship, x kuasa nak layan husband, marah x tentu pasal.... Ah banyak la..nak g google. and this can last dari beberapa jam je lepas bersalin hingga 2 3 bulan. some kalau x dibendung waa lama woo..

This time aku bersalin aku. Ade la sikit tempias kat aku. Itupun setelah aku baca and carik apasal la aku ni. 1stly sebab aku whole day kat rumah with 2 kids, buat itu ini and kalau x buat pun cam xde sapa to talk to selain kawan kawan online aku. Jadi aku jadi depress sikit and marah kat Husband aku. Mula 1st week okay sbb dia ade la kat rumah. Tghhari baru g kerja.. Aku rasa anoyed sangat. Kadang aku merajuk nak dia pujuk tapi words yang kuar dari mulut dia bukan how, or what i wanna hear lagi aku jadi bengang! Kalau aku kena cakap apa yang aku nak dgr dari dia sudah xde gunanya kan kan kan? Hadoi!..Susahnye lak idris ni tidak ade knowledge langsung pasal PPD ni. x kisah and percaya pun ye. Dia suh aku g solat..lagi la aku bengang. Camana nak solat kalau masih dalam keadaan ko berbesfren ngan KOTEX, Lauries, SOfy. X fikirkan...hadoi...bila cakap kang ketawa. Ingat LUCU sangat ker.Kalau aku cakap sumer masuk kiri kuar kanan x nak amik pusing. hah kan aku marah lagi kat dia. So sesiapa yang nak beranak tu always tell ur husband what to expect. baca buku kehamilan and research kat web cakap dorang. Kat mesia ni mmg jarang happen tapi kadang kadang ade sikit. Jangan amik ringan.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Postpartum_depression

so apa apa pun itu je aku nak cakap. sbb kawan aku pun baru bagi tau aku pasal kondisi aku yang kadang sedey x tentu pasal bila kena tinggal, marah...n bla bla. dia suh duduk kat rumah mommy je.(salah ko jugak maria ko nak dok kat rumah sendiri) abih kalau dok rmah mommy pun kena tinggal ari ni dorg g KL.

::TZA, Love Perhaps, Ak3m, Novel and Much More::

Well memandangkan x boleh merayap jauh. Duduk rumah dengan baby je sebab Sarah slalu g rumah mummy. Asyik baca novel je la bila ade masa. Aftermathnya baca novel ni is angan angan x sudah. Banyak benda boleh flashback. Dah le bosan kan duduk rumah, xleh g mana mana, nak jumpa kengkawan pun xleh sebab xleh lepak lama lama jadi mula la otak bermain main ngan emosi, angan and what so ever.

This is just a phase i am going through.

1. AK3m af7 slalu buat aku terkenang kenang kat JB, Iqbal and Zakiah.Sejak aku tengok iklan Cornetti Inilah Cinta. And lagu dia pun aku slallu dengar. x tahu kenapa 'feel' yang dorang (iqbal n Zakiah)ni kawan ngan Akem. Amat amat minat pulak kat akem ni. dia buat aku rasa cam aku tulis pasal blog aku sebelum ni la tentang dia. Dia jugak remind aku of JB di waktu siang yang baru lepas hujan. x panas and x sejuk. 1st time aku datang JB tuk jumpa parents Idris. Jumpa Iqbal. And juga dia mengingatkan aku waktu malam di danga bay memandang ke arah Singapore skyline. Arghhh dont let me start what he reminds me of SG pulak. Panjang sangat.

:: Ni la AK3M AF7 ::

2. How is it to live the life of a typical Drama Melayu, or lebih tepat NOVEL MELAYU LA...where you have a house on the hiltop mauybe bukit antarabangsa ker with a balcony overlooking KL skyline. Cars than can make your neighbour jealous nak mati berderet kat garage. Husband or BF la senang yang handsome, CEO company mana ntah with a fancy sports car. Or maybe Husband Artis cam Norman ke, Yusry ke, Zulhuzaimy ker (he mcm a very romantic husband. caring too). Xde pun BF cam Teuku Zakaria Azwar..(OhHhhH so Gorgeousss gila sumpah x cariklain.ahakz).In laws datuks and datins yang asyik busy memanjang and rumah sebesar maybe Giant kat melaka ni... ahah best ke? ade masalah x rasanya? adakah akan rasa puas and happy? mesti ade je masalah berbangkit lain kan. Aku sebenarnya berangan hidup seperti dalam cerita favourite aku Kayangan. (Sebab TZA ade berlakon ngan Fazura.Comey)

::Hah ni la TZA [Teuku Zacky Azwar].Handsome kan.ala ala Hans Issac tapi dia ni lagi comey::

3. Teringat time masa kerja kat KL. Sadly it was a very short time. 2 tahun je. belum sempat nak klik ngan KL dah balik Melaka. Masa tu rasa KL ni hetic gila x tahan nak balik tempat yang damai. Tapi kan..rindu time malam balik jalan kaki ngan Ana tunggu tren dari Time Square. Lepak lepas kerja ngan kengkawan sementara tunggu Idris balik. Jalan kaki dari tren station ke mana mana destinasi. Pilihan gerai makan, makanan and types of food yang banyak x cam kat Hometown ni. Ah rindu kalau nak something je senang everything so near, everything ada. Rindu merayap kat Times square carik makan sampai sungai wang. rindu suasana Kota. Malam malam merayap ngan zakiah and nenek.1st time nenek jumpa husband dia..ahahahhaha.Merayap di KL yang x pernah tido waktu malam tgk ragam orang. lebey kurang cam carik pasal la. tapi skang KL maybe x seselamat dulu. DUlu x selamat skang lagi la.



::KL skyline inilah yang aku dapat tgh dari rumah aku kat atas bukit cam dalam novel or drama.
Kl skyline yang aku rindui..ahaz::



4. Terimbas balik kenangan time belajar. Zaman bercinta i 'debiu' . haish bestkan..dating, sms x ingat, call for no reason. Adrenalin rush and rasa cam ade butterflies dalam perut bila dia ajak keluar or dia kata nak jumpa. Suprise dia buat tiba tiba muncul depan pintu bila patutnya dia ade kelas..,bila dia beli something to suprise. Ah keluar seharian pun x bosan. Sambung sms and call sampai pagi. Esok bangun x cukup tido. Ni sumer aku teringat balik sebab terdengar ade kawan aku skang hangat bercinta. Ai best kan. Skang pun leh lagi dengan husbandla tapi thrill tu xde sebab malam kang tentu dia balik rumah, tido sebelah. Kalau aku ajak dia bersms and call sampai pagi ade kang dia ingat aku ni sewel or aku ni x betul. membazir bil. SIlap hb dia bagi aku speech belanjawan 2011.  Nak kuar ngan dia, dah memang kuar dari rumah sama, x payah nak jemput jemput. Gila la nak suh dia kuar pusing seround dua then amik aku. Sama je..sbb aku jugak yang siap baju dia nak kuar. Haish..cuma if dia kerja and tiba tiba dia balik ajak lunch tu hati bebunga la..ahakzz...

5. Teringat malam malam kat Hospital especially ward bersalin and suasana di Hospital Besar Melaka. Suasana malam yang sepi and tenang. Mendamaikan. Gila ke aku. betul la malam malam kat Hospital mmg mendamaikan. Teringat saat saat masuk labour and everything. Is the best thing. Aku still hanging on to the moment walaupun dah 21 hari berlalu. Aish...best thing happen to me is  Getting married and delivering my babies. Results is a family of my own extending to the one i already have. Ahh...heaven on earth.

well maybe sounds cam aku x happy ngan life, x bersyukur. AKu actually bersyukur sangat and happy cuma buat masa ni, bila xde apa nak buat. Lagging sangat x busy hidup..mula la setan nak buat aku jadi depress..ish ish nak solat xleh sbb pepaham la..lom habis lagi ni 'masih ada'.arghh...husband aku lak dah 3 hari full time kerja sbb dia tgk aku dah okay. if x ade la jugak dia di rumah..

:: TO Nani With Love::

Hah 1stly Good Luck to Nani yang dalam proses melahirkan anak sulung dia.

Kawan aku call dari Hospital. Yes dia dah sakit sakit. Nak time beranak walaupun awal seminggu. Sempat lagi call aku tu. Anak sulung. Hmm nak tanya aku wat to do. Nak buat apa? Tahan sakit and Teran je la. Dia dah x tahan rasa cam nak operate je. Eh jangan percayala walaupun operate tu ko x rasa sakit nak bersalin tapi lepas tu sakit ko berpanjangan. If normal. Kejap je lepas selamat bersalin hilang sakit tu. Magic kan. Dan cepat baik maCam aku ni yang x makan saman. baru 20 hari pantang dah merayap seMelaka.

Nani cakap, camana la aku leh tahan sampai 2 anak. Dia dah rasa x nak dah. Kalau husband dia nak jugak. Dia nak cekik husband dia. Aku cakap. Heleh cakap je cam tu. Aku pun cakap cam tu jugak dulu tapi bila dah tengok baby tu, membesar baby tu, tengok orang lain ade baby,nak la jugak sebab dah mampu and boleh ada anak kan. Nani cakap..Gila la...AKu cakap. KO sakit sakit pun sempat call aku kan.. HUsband aku cakap. Sakit sangat ke bersalin??? Ewahhhhhhhh

[NOTA:: Lelaki jangan tanya soklan tu dalam nada sinis okay. Sakit dia anda tidak boleh bayang. Kalau kena tendang kat tempat sulit anda tu pun x sesakit nak bersalin hokay.]

Nani takut nurse sana garang cam citer orang orang dulu. Nurse marah la apa. Aku cakap, xdela itu dulu, skang tade cam tu. dorang caring and lagi understanding dari doc. Diorang akan help ko. Nani mintak tips.Mana ade tips Nani. ko ni agak agak la. Tapi apa yang aku leh cakap is this::

1. Jangan jerit jerit nangis,nangis kuat2, merengek, panggil mak ke apa. hanya akan buat nurse tu bengang. Bila sakit cakap la Ya ALLAH. Ampunkanla dosa ibu ku..or ALLAHUAKBAR...Masa tu barula tersedar betapa sakitnya mak kita nak beranak kita.Terasa bagi mereka yang nak beranak sulung. Kali kedua tu xdela feeling sangat..Nurse tu xkan bising sangat

2. Bila sakit push sekuat hati.PEGANG BUKU LALI KAKI , TARIK KAKI KE BELAKANG DAN PUSH and ANGKAT BADAN SIKIT BUKAN BONTOT, bahagian atas badan.Sebab posisi anda baring. Bukan cam dalam filem tu. Senang baby nak kuar.

3. Jangan angkat bontot. Woooo koyak gila wooo...

4.Masa nak jahit tu. Tido je la..mesti korang penatnyer.ahahah. Tade pun ko call je org org terdekat ko. Husband ko ke kalau dia tgh membuta kat rumah sbb ko bersalin pagi gila.Or husband ko yang kena tunggu kat luar sebab x pergi kursus.

5. Lepas dah bersih selamat semua. Update la kat FB.ahaks..yang xde FB leh la call cakap dah selamat.

Nani, blog ni tuk ko. So kalau ko dah baca ni jangan call aku g. Aku nak tido. Ahaks..

ps:: If bersalin x sakit and badan x amik masa lama tuk sembuh, nak je aku ade baby each year. Babies are just so SHOMEL SHOMEL...( Shomel in Sarah Lang is Comel)

::Tsunami on ASTRO History 555::

Dulu masa sekolah ade belajar pasal tsunami dalam kelas Alam dan Manusia. Tapi bukan topic penting. setakat touch and go je. Aku ingat lagi cikgu aku cakap wave tu besar cam banggunan 2 tingkat kadang kadang lebih. Selalu happen kat Jepun. Aku terbayang. Kat Jepun alahai jauhnya xde chance la nak tengok tsunami. X tahulak bahayanya..meragut nyawa dan kemajuan.Hah 2004 harapan aku tu terjadi di Indonesia, Malaysia and Thai. Juga di Sri Lanka. Di malaysia jadi kat Langkawi..tepat tepat tempat kolej aku. Waa kalau aku ade lagi CONFIRM dah hanyut ngan air laut. Ye la aku pun x tahu berenang!!!

TSUNAMI 26, December 2004. Dah nak 6 tahun dah next month.

Was watching ::Tsunami:: on Astro History [555]. Wow watching the wave collect its strength from the sea and hitting Thailand. I find myself running from my chair as if the wave is coming after me.The wave yang to me so friendly and the element i enjoy the most when at the beach is no friend to anyone when Tsunami happens. How strong it is.

There is one clip where the tourist filmed the whole thing. You can see the wave becoming a tall white wall and rushing towards you. How scary. It washes away anything in its path. 1st banjir biasa yang surut within 20 minutes diikuti of the 'big wave' waa. Besar gila okay..nampak je kecik tapi its actually besar.Ade tourist tu sempat lagi berjalan jalan kat pantai. Dia ingat amusing sangat air surut jauh gila. And sempat lagi tourit yang film ni, film skali camana lelaki itu dipukul ombak and terus hilang. Mati la tu. x survive CONFIRM. Sedeynya.

Kuasa tuhan. Benda yang menjadi keperluan kita seharian. yang nampak jinak dan tidak bahaya. yang tidak disangka sangka. Air yang terus sapu bersih tempat tu. Buang semua kotoran lahiriah dan yang tersembunyi. Hah..bertapa besarnya kuasa tuhan. I find myself beristigfar so many time watching the people running. As if i could feel their fear. Rasa cam nak je selamatkan diorang. Yang selamat di tempat tinggi menjerit jerit mintak yang di bawah tu lari cepat tapi masa tu orang yang kebanyakkan tourist alpa. leka main air kat beach ngan bikini and swimming suits mereka.Habis semua kena sapu skali je. Diam sepi..semua dah mati. ade yang sedar dah tengah laut. x mati kelaparan Jaws makan..ahahahha..

ps:: aku dari dulu mmg takut bila berada di tengah laut yang x nampak daratan langsung. Rasa cam nak kena telan ngan ikan paus or jaws. ahahah..



::CONFIRM I tak Balik!!!::

Sarah Daania dah 2 tahun 8 bulan. Mulut lancang je, bijak berkata and loyar buruk. Some of Sarah favourites quotes.

1. Sarah gaduh with papa. Dia nak pergi rumah mimma (grandma) tapi papa x kasi sebab dah selalu sangat pergi sana penat mimma.

Papa:: Maria tmrw make sure sarah x pergi rumah mimma. Cannot go. You balik jadi naughty.
Sarah:: I nak go mimma house...!!!! (melalak x kira)
Mother:: ye la esok kita pergila. Dah malam tido la

::esok pagi:: siap siap mandi. idris siap siap nak pergi kerja.

Sarah:: Papa, i nak go mimma house now tau. CONFIRM i x balik lagi.
Papa:: ouh u ugut papa. mentang mentang i nak pergi kerja so cannot halang you, you ugut i eh. EY.dont ugut ur father.

2. Sarah suka main air liur..dia suka buat belon belon..Mimma takukan sarah dengan watak 'Antu Liur' yang kononnya suka tangkap budak yang main air liur.

Mimma:: Sarah dont play with ur air liur!!
Sarah:: why mimma?
Mimma:: Nanti Hantu Liur tangkap you nanti you nak.
Sarah:: Ok x nak x nak..Hantu Oreo boleh mimma.

Bengang Mimma dia. nak takutkan dia. Loyar buruk pulak. Tergulik gulik aku gelak. Sarah Sarah!~~

3. Sarah suka try minuman yang orang dewasa minum. So idris suka nescafe or coke. x baik tuk Sarah jadi Idris akan tipu dia cakap tu ubat for grown ups. dia xleh minum. Jadi dia kena pandang je. Satu malam, bawak sarah pergi beli slurpee. Favourite dia and jugak Papa dia.

Papa:: Sarah sikit slurpee..
Sarah:: (sambil sedut berbunyi bunyi buat muka x tahu).
Papa:: sikit la Sarah..
Sarah:: xleh papa ni ubat ni. you x boleh minum..x bagos..
Mother:: Sarah bagila papa.sian papa dah bawak you pergi 7eleven kan.
Sarah:: okay sikit je tau, jangan minum banyak ubat ni. x bagus. x sedap pun papa.

hahah bengang Idris. X jadi nak minum. Kedekut nye Sarah.Moral jangan tipu budak kecik. Cakap je terus terang.

4.Sarah nak balik kampung dengan mimma and atuk. dia nak bawak sofea.

Sarah:: Mother sofea x boleh ikut ker?
Mother:: x boleh sarah, sofea small, dia xleh jalan lagi, x boleh makan sendiri.
Sarah:: why dia x boleh makan?
Mother:: Sofea mana ade gigi kan. Thats why dia minum susu je.
Sarah:: Sofea, u cannot ikut, u xleh makan sendiri u xde gigi kan. Nanti i go KL i beli gigi for you eh Sofea!

Alalala..mana nak g beli gigi tu Sarah.

::AK3M AF7::

"Mungkin inikah yang dinamakan cinta

Hati gembira rasa bila kau kata cinta

Siang yang suram kini menjadi ceria

Hati yang gelisah akhirnya kini menjadi bahagia"

Kalau Nenek tahu ni, mesti dia gelakkan aku. Ntah camana la aku boleh 'ter'minat kat Akim Af7 or Afiq Hakim Ahmad. Yes! Yang nyanyi lagu Inilah Cinta for iklan Cornetto Love Perhaps..everytime aku dengar suara dia and iklan dia kat TV rasa cam best je, cam tenang je. Sebab dia dari JB jadi aku teringat kampung Husband aku. Boleh x cam tu? ahaks..aku teringat adik Ipar aku Iqbal and basically aku terasa rindu kat JB. Aku teringat kat hospital di waktu malam masa nak bersalin Sarah (perasaan terharu and sayu sangat). Teringat buku cerita Damya Hanna.Ahaha aku sendiri kelakar dengan perasaan aku ni. Haish sampai dah join fanclub Akim.

Husband aku cakap aku ni sengal cam budak budak sekolah menengah masuk fan club. Tapi aku skolah menengah dulu xde masa nak join mana mana fanclub. Gila, mana ade wet nak bayar fee ke or internet masa tu xle senang nak gapai cam ni. DULU Fan club melalui surat...Borink!~~ Skang advance dah.

Tapi AK3M ni, ade style rambut dia muka dia nampak teruks...x maskulin langsung. (Sila ambil perhatian saya tidak suka gunakan perkataan macho tuk lelaki. Maskulin nampak lagi gagah kan kan????) Tapi dalam iklan tu nampak comel la pulak. Apasal ntah...banyak banyak AF aku tengok AF7 ni pulak yang aku 'ter'suka. Ahaks kelakar.

Ps:: Actually i am trying to overcome my LIKENESS of Akim...i'm to old for FAn clubs and stuff...

::Sarah balik kampung & Pantang::

Sarah 1st stay over in Kampung without Mommy or Papa. Haiya..i pulak cannot sleep. Kejap kejap call my mum. Worried pun ade, miss her pun ade.

" Is she looking for me?"
" She okay x? sedey x jauh?"
" Happy x dia? Dia buat sesiapa marah kat dia ker?"
" Makan, mandi okay? Ma her pampers cukup ker? Baju dia enough?"

Haish sedangkan with my mum jer! Bukan rombongan skolah pergi KLCC ke apa. Tapi dia baru 2 tahun..selama ni mesti i ade with her. So now dia nak pergi without mummy, cam erk sentap la mak nak!~ Papa dia mula okay jer, tapi bila dah lama, teringat ingat. Hah standard la Papa dia mmg cam tu. Tapi kejap jer..

Hah one more sebab Sarah nak pergi is dia nak jumpa Nt Uwa and Uncle Wan feberet dia. Wawawa pandai ko eh. Mesti ade something tu tapi aku dah warning Zura and Wan. No fancy stuff for her. Lemak berkrim nanti. Dah ada adik kena jadi Kakak, xleh dapat je apa dia nak. Dia pun nak jumpa Uncle Boy dia. Yesla sapa lagi yang rajin bawak layankan dia main kat 'rumah2'. Boy memang dari dulu rajin and sabar tunggu kat playpark.

Pantang? yer aku tahu i have to be at home with socks and kain, sweater if u think is necessary and also bengkung. Bengkung pakai malam, socks..eheh leceh bila nak ke toilet..so x pakai.Kain..susah nak jalan..x pakai, sweater..panas berpeluh wat benda!! And ari ni aku g Jalan Shopping ngan Sofea sbb Sarah x nak ikut mummy. dia balik Kampung.

Keh..borink dah..kul 2am. Tido la.esok tunggu Sarah balik. Nak main masak masak ngan dia..

::Smell of Babies are sign of innocents::

1st:: I love baby smell. Baby smell makes me feel so free of troubles, calm and peacefull. Baby smell makes me think of purity and innocent. I think baby smell are the sense of pure innocent. When you grow older, you loose your innocense and thats why you loose your baby smell..ahaha thats what i think.It also makes me think of my younger days before i went to school and had fun spending time going to town with my Grandma and grandpa and my sis Zura on a cold chilly cloudy morning when Melaka was not that busy. Ahahaha..

2nd:: Its tiring, i love my 2 angels a lot but sometime its tiring. A days routine starts when Sarah gets up bath her,bfast for her then see to Sofea. Milk, bath and put her to sleep while Idris bathing. Prepare his clothes while attend to Sarah wailling.Idris bfast by himself while i milk sofea again and attending to Sarah. Sofea sleeps.Idris tends to Sarah and i take my bath. Idris to work and me alone with 2 kids. When Sarah cries automatically Sofea cries too. So the key to shut Sofea up is not to let Sarah cry. But she will cry when she dun get her wat. Sarah is at the point she is looking for attention. She is helpfull and loves Sofea but she will give her mommy trouble though.Poor hubby have to handle most of the things himself. Gimme time to adjust to 2 then i can continue with you.

3rd:: Husband is not good at doing grocery. Hopeless sometimes. I ask him to get cotton wool he bought cotton balls which cost more than cotton wool. Garbage bag from the normal thick M size black colour i always buy which cause RM 7.60 for 30 he thought than i waste so he bought blue colour size S which is so thin for Rm 3.50 for 30 but cant be use for heavy garbage or long. Cause its see through, thin and breakable. Sardines turn into Mackerels,Rice from less strarch to normal rice which he himself dun like. Some things needs to buy time to time and i never bother him but since dalam pantang he has to buy now he realise there are a lot of things to do and maintain. Supply and cleanliness of the house is now in his hands..yes service bertukar tangan sekejap.

4th::Macik who looks after me this 10 days is good at 'urut' and also all the 'pantang larang' but so sorry Macik sometimes i cannot follow. I need meat everyday and i get hungry very fast if i only eat 'ikan bilis'. This Macik does everything from- mandi baby, urut buang angin baby, urut mummy, buang angin mummy, execise for post natal, spa, mandi lulur, facial and also cooks. Superb rite? well but sometimes this Macik scares me too.

Well thats all for now. All asleep and now my time to rest has been taken a bit more as Sofea sleeps late.I hate to sleep alone in the room so i always curik Sarah in the room with me. However my babies are with me and the father of my babies sleep alone. Sorry eh sayang..but you just have to bare with it..Aharharharhar.