::Family o'Mine:: Sarah-its not always black and white, sometimes its pink!-

.Sometimes its stressful. Sarah is at the age she will menjawab balik semua benda kalau boleh. And she gets hurt if u say the wrong thing. Like yesterday i was so tired and mad. Sofea was making a wreck at home spilling water from a cup my sister left at the table and she pulak x habis complain bout the computer at my moms house slow. She bebel and bebel i cant make out dah apa dia cakap. Husband call pulak ask me to see to something else. Semua benda nak kena buat instantly. So i just said,'ah pening la kepala i macam ni'. She felt hurt. She ask me ' why you cakap macam tu mother. Janganla cakap macam tu'. I hug her..bergenang air mata dia kesian pulak. Salah i, x sabar sangat.

But then how u explain. Playing snake and ladders, she wants to choose her numbers she x nak throw the dice.She ask you why must play like that.just play biasa biasa dah..what is play biasa biasa Sarah??? What do you expect a 3 year old. I teach her how to play the right way,she can only follow the rules for 2 minutes. I gave her to play online toddler games and when she dont like how the games goes she ask me to change it. I was dumbfound..camana nak tukar..yesla Sarah mother kena jadi programmer.When you explain to her something,she ask you WHY it has to be that way? Mind challenging kan..but also bagusla..i have to do research and automatically i learn simple petty things that i took for granted all this while.

I guess Sarah still thinks simple wherelese kita dah grown up ni, we are trapped in the real world..We see things black and white while she sees it colourful. Thats why she ask me, why must play like this, xboleh ke play like biasa biasa je or like something else. Then i remember when i was small, me and my sister use to make up ways of playing snake and ladders. We had fun and my mom will laugh. We also did give mom this headache.Sampai mommy will say, malas la nak play with you, mommy x tahu how to play.Cause the rules were not rules were just make up rules as we go along and me and my sis just agreed to each other..ahahaha.I miss childhood. Thanks Sarah for bringing me back to times when everything is not only black and white, there is always a pink or a blue somewhere.

She always fight with me and go againts what i say. What i say she never agrees tapi if her Papa say the exact same thing, He is right. She hates me, she says it whenever i say No to something she wants to do. But i guess that is part of parenting. She doesnt mean it. She is just angry cause later she will come laugh and play and hug me like usual.But i dont want this attitude to prolong. She complains about everything, nothing ever suits her if i do it for her. Maybe she is rebelling against my attention for Sofea who is a clown. She is funny.It makes me sad, and at nite i kiss her and tell her i love her. I once read a quote from someone famous..quoted back by my friend. ' if you child has not said they hate you once, then you have not been a good parent'. Cause sometimes the reason we are hated is because we dont allow them to do things that prohibited or wrong. Its a process of teaching them what right and wrong. If i let her learn it her way..she wont know if its right or wrong cause she never done it before.....when they are thought well then we let them try and experiment. Aku dah merepek.Emo sarah just said she hated me cause i couldnt change the way the game on the internet goes...Sad  =(...maybe one day she will understand.