#MyWorld- BabySit Me.

Today one of the macik customer ask me, Why x pergi kerja je?.
I told her i am, as a mother.
She said, Sayang i am still young, lot of Jobs outside. Anak anak ni boleh hantar baby sitter or taska.
I smiled...


Macik ni nak promote dia leh jaga budak ke? Dia ada Taska? Dia nak bagi aku kerja? Apa  motif berbual macam ni...?*terdetik dalam hati la.

Macik macik, here let me tell you why I am sometimes reluctant to sent my kids away from me.

My kids are my life, my love and my pride and joy. My mom can't look after them,my in laws are far away so that's it i am not sending them away.If they could, i would be happy to go and work and help my husband out with the bills. Happy to do so..but simple, they can't and i dont expect them to drop everything for my kids.Why i want my mom or any close family to look after them, cause i dont trust the people at the taska, or some random baby sitter , or maybe the neighbor i knew for so long to take care of my kids. I know my kids, they are a handful and biarla i je yang jaga. Here macik why...

You read in the papers, sometimes happen to people close to you, in the society where you live in-Cabul budak, dera budak di taska, budak mati tercekik susu, kena culik. I know this can also happen if i am the one looking after BUT saya ibunya..saya akan cuba sebaik mungkin to protect them. I would lay my life down. Would this other strangers do for them?? NO!!..Takpela..i look after them, when i am old in hope they will look after me.

Even some cases, people close to you, like your relatives or family member do such a thing to this kids, apa ntah lagi nak trust outsiders. Xpela selagi saya mampu, selagi suami saya mampu. Macik, do you know how heartbreaking some moms go trough to sent their kids to others. But some have to...and they trusted those people who in return disgrace them, harm their kids and some even did it cause:- malas nak jaga budak tu x nak berhenti nangis.SEDANGKAN, they are paid for. Xpe macik, biar x cukup sekarang InsyaALLAH nanti ALLAH balas x berbelah bagi.

My Husband saw me looking down. He knows yang I felt offended with the maciks blabbering of how good if women now days work...so he came and smile. With the sweetest answer he said, 'Xpela macik, saya masih mampu bagi dorang cukup semua. Saya nak isteri saya dengan saya dan anak anak...kalau pergi kerja tuk bantu suami takpela macik, tapi kalau tuk beli apa dia nak, saya masih boleh bagi..?"...Macik tu laugh a silly laugh.."xdela macik cakap je, macik pun dulu x kerja jugak,pacik x bagi?'.Her face turn a shy look.Eh sorry macik bukan nak offend you pulak.

Eh then apa la macik ni, mungkin dia hanya melepaskan kekesalan dia tidak dapat bekerja dulu. Tapi macik, saya yang pilih jalan ni. Tapi macik, you x nampak like someone who was mistreated, who was neglected by your kids and husband.

To mothers who work, i support you, pillars to their husbands, guardian to their kids.Those who can cope are just as superwoman of these days..juggling between work and family, 2 different stress and job.Strongest of the bunch they are.

..today I read in the papers, a kid was molested and raped by the husband of her baby sitter. How the mom of the kid was in rage & heartbroken. Yet, she stood by her kid and she will gain back the kids trust, the kids courage, the kids self esteem. The mother will work all her best to make things right and be there for the kid even though she is broken inside.Tertanya saya, orang yang buat tu xde anak perempuan ker? Tak ada akal ker? budak tu kecik lagi, why rosakkan masa depan dia. Things like this make me think twice.

To mothers who are looking after their kids, its a sacrifice without regrets,its a highest paid job. Nourished the kids and love them, the reward and benefits is for a lifetime.Though it can be the most tiring job and i am not complaining but a simple show of love or gratitude from the child or spouse will kill the tiredness away and you can carry on. Stress that dont give you a heart condition, and exercise that can keep you fit.

But i know, not all mothers are the same, some are just the opposite.Everything happen for a reason and i believe they are not bad mothers but just misguided in a certain way.