..My World Comes Crumbling Down..

Sad, sometimes people can get the wrong idea of you. WHY? different people have different personalities, different views, likes and dislikes. I know what you think of me now. Yes i am sad but i dun care. I accept that you are macam tu and you think of me like this. Tapi whats your problem..I have my own personal reason for rejecting that offer, you might think its a small thing to you, it can be a big thing for me. You say you never met someone like me, but i am telling you, there are people like me. I am not asking you a favour that needs you to give all your treasure, trust or gold. I am just asking you, please dont use me as a pawn. I am thinking not only for me but for you. I have my own personal reason and problems and i dont want you to get involve. probally i dun wan to share with you.WhY, we aRe familY say you?..yes..by law we are not by blood. And i dont want because of me, later you yang get trouble digging me out. No i dont need you help. Tapi itu pun i salah....macam i susahkan you. I terasa okay..patut i yang rasa you susahkan me. You x rasa ke bila you cakap macam tu, its like you x pedulik apa i rasa, you are just using me as your pawn. I x bodoh...and i tau my value. x suka u beg me, i never wanted you to, i x suka you asking me to many times, makes me really lagi uncomfortable with you. I helped you once and i did all i can. Jangan la pull me again like this. I x nak... Sometimes i think, maybe its your fault..you were never a good example to me, you annoy me you irritate me. you showed me there is someone so cunning and heartless like you. DO you know, i learn to hate you because of what i see from you. But that is not the reason why i dun want to. I still help you with other stuff, but only this time i dun feel right. Bukan i busuk hati, bukan i nak mintak apa..just x nak itu jer..Susah sangat ke? You kecewa..tapi kalau i take your offer i kecewa you pedulik ker? you x kisah lepas tu you will be happy you got what you want in return of me feeling bad.. Haish..i just wanna sleep and forget today..i sometimes i just hope i dun wake up for another 3 mths..but then i am being selfish, i have others who understands me..who needs me even though actually they dont.