::F.R.I.E.N.D.S:: And how i miss you so...::

.I got an sms from a dear friend. She said she need someone to talk. didn't matter what time i would be online, she ask me to buzz. So i did. I am glad i did. It's been along time since we had a very...let me elaborate how long...veeeeerrrrrrrrrryyyy long time since we had a long heart to heart chat. spend the whole early wee hours of the day reminiscing the times we had when since we knewn each other. Sharing things with her that i dont share with any friend.

I realise how i have change,how some of my friends have change and how we have grown out of that silly mid twenties girls. No matter how we wish we were, or how we say  everytime on someones birthday,' Hey kau dah tua aku masih 21 lagi'. You can hide the maturity and clamness, coolness and in our way, life and style. Yerp. doesnt matter if you are single, taken, hitched, broked off. It sure shows. You may not look your age but you sure have change. But i am happy that we changed for the good. Of course la some of us have kids, have others to take care, have own life-carrier. Of course we cant always stay the way we were in our early 20's-childish, carefree,always joking aroung never taking things that seriusly. Come on, i find that those who stay that way dont go that far. Sikit banyak pun ade berubah kan.

We chat about 5 hours. Taking back from the 1st time we became friend till today. Missing the friends we lost along the way and also i had a heart to heart talk about how she felt when i got married.I never ask her, i never thought of asking afraid that i might be brushed off and perasan sebab terlalu ambil berat sangat pulak. But all this while i really wanted to know. I hope that with me getting married dont keep her far from me.Hey my husband were also one of our pals. So there is no reason of-'Malu, segan, x biasa, xnak kacau'. Hey we are still friends and i still consider you as the closest. We known each other for more than a decade beb. Thats long. To kow someone that long after age 18 ( i consider school times friends that stay on till now are the only true friends cause we are still naive). I know we have bitter quarelss and catfights and pull faces but in the end now we look back and laugh. How silly we were and what a stupid waste of time.

I really miss our friendship from the day i said goodbye to college life. Cause since then i felt that we grow futher apart and we were not that close like we use to be. I'm in the south and you up north were much closer to our friends who live in the city. Of course la sini siapa je ada kan. Sometimes you update me, sometimes you dont. Sometimes i get updates after so long-dah basi dah. Sometime things happen  and everyone else knows and i just found out..though you came to visit me during that time. I wish sometimes i can rekindle back that friendship. Sometimes rasa jelous jugak pada mereka yang dekat and can have those girlie talk easily with you. But i know i cant be selfish and i have someone else too, that i can also share only he doesnt understand me the girly way that my girlfriends do.So i just loon on.As long as i have your friendship, its okay for me. So for long we stayed this way untill that weekend.Talking to you the whole nite and then the next day,i felt again like those time when i we use to stay up late and bla bla bla over foolish things, gossiping, berangan x sudah, laughing and joking..ahaha only u know the scandal behind  #ec. ahahahhaah shh our secret !! so to all of my friends..this is for you..

'X'Oct 6 2003, 04:42 PM

hola my lovely sista!!miss u so much!
ahakz..FARISHA NADIA..sedap plak nama
yg aku bg tu kan..hehehe.biler nak dtg
sini lagi..aku rindu gile ngan
ko.Malia..aku anggap dia mcm akak aku
sendiri.sayang dia!!muahszz.ahakz.wut
can i say bout her?a good listener!
yess..she is a good listener.apa
masalah...bleh kongsi ngan dia..dia
akan dgr masalah n kalo bleh solve
skali masalah tue.thanx maria for being
there for me..thanx a lot!semua org
kate dia degil..dia sendiri pon mengaku
dia degil..so tu la dia.talkactive pon
jugak..bleh ah sket.apa pon kwn ngan
dia memang besh!maria..aku rindukan
langkawi..biler kita nak gi sana lagi
eh?biler kita nak naik kete api sesame??
biler?biler??warghh!!hmmm....pasal kite
salah paham aritu,sorry eh..emo mase
tue...tak leh control..im so sorry.ko
tak marah aku kan?? :-) ..hehehe..wokeh
la..donno wut to say..lurve u alwiz..u
alwiz in my heart my dear sista.
~If THEy GAvE an awad fO da sseFen
In The whOle wOld,I NomINATe u. nO
MATTeR WuT...fO eTtIng bE uR feN AnD
fo beING THe FEN U aRe,fROm The
bOttom of mY heART..tq~

Thank you for the sincere testimonial you gave me back in 2003 before i left for practical and then workhood.Spending the weekend online chatting we decided to open our ol skool interface,'Friendster' and we got a few friends hooked on checking out old testimonials. I miss Nenek too. The biggest change i have seen is Nenek sampai i forgot how close i use to be with her.

PS:: Maia please dont forget you next blog you wanna talk about FRIENDSTER.