:: My Birthday Blog::

Some people freak out when they grow a year older. I dont, for me age is age, age is just a number, is how young your heart and minds are. Some people can be 60 but active and stunning. Why? cause they dont let age get in they way. Yes its my 29th birthday. Yeay me!! The older the wiser..

 This is a new year for me. I think new year for each one of us starts on  our birthday as he allows us to still be alive, or renew our license to be on his earth before he comes and takes us away.. Not 1 Jan, unless you were born on January 1st. I thank ALLAH for allowing me to have my breath till today, to take care of my 2 children and the wonderfull family and friends that i have * without you i am not me*.

Some ask me what i wanna do for my birthday? Party? Cake? Nah~~ i had enough of those days. Being just Me without any hassle would be fun.. It has been 29 years. I had enough of doing things. Like the year before. From the moment i became a mum, i dedicate my birthday wishes and thoghts or presents to my Mum and Dad for without them i would not be here, would not be who i am, would not be happy as i am.

* I love you Mummy & Papa, thank you for bringing me to this would and extra 12 years more looking on me teaching me about life one step at a time. I hope i'll be there always to guide Sarah & Sofea like you did for me*

Well at this day, i thought about my parents. Termenung jauh. I am the 1st born. This is the day i came to the world and made them parents. They felt what i felt when i had Sarah. Maybe this is what mommy thinks each year. Like me, On Sarah's birthday. i am always reminded of how i delivered her, the people around me, the wheather dat day,the surroundings, the pain i went through, how she made her debut* Tears dropping* Its so heartwarming to hold your baby in your arms, the excitement and the pleasure, the happiness it brings. It keeps on playing in my head. Maybe that is what mommy feels too. Now i understand. as i am a mum now, i really appreciate she having me. I cannot thank her. There is no words to express my gratitude for the pengorbanan she went through..a decision she made * i am gonna have you and love you all my life, to protect you and be there when you fall*. Thanks Mummy.

So happy birthday Me, take good care of yourself Maria, be nicer to people around you. Look around you, and those friends who are still there at this age is the friends that you keep cause they are your true friends. Look into your life, make amends with people you never know when is your last birthday!! be gratefull for what you have. Never complaint. God has been nice to you, so you be good okay.Yeah i have no career. There are some things i regret doing and some thing i regret not doing..But to compliment that, i have a great family.I have friends who makes me smile and there when i slip a step down..life has it ups and downs. you can always be on the top!!..hey you..yeah i envy you with what you have, a job to be proud of. Maybe i shud get one if its not too late. This is my path, i made the decision. No regrets..

::happy birthday Me..yeay!!::