...Sarah Oh Sarah..

Day I Saturday, she still have blood in her stool. And this time she cried when she wanted to 'go'..." mama yap yap pish.." i rub her belly. Tuhan je tahu how worried and sad i was. Arhgh..maybe some will say xde apa sikit jer. How should i know and how do you know. This is my firstborn, my first time handling this matter. To see my baby which i carried for 9 months pain..i cannot Tahan. My Father in law ask me if i wanna go home dat nite. No its okay.!~ i will bare with her the pain till tommorrow cause he is tired and driving at nite is not his choice. Day II Sunday, pagi lagi dah balik. She lembik sikit. Maybe kurang air.She ask for her Papa since malam tadi. Maybe dia rindu Papa dia je kot.Before travell dia berak lagi. This time berketul sikit darah dia..Ahh risau lagi..Doakan tade apa apa teruk. Balik berhenti breakfast, sebab keluar lepas Subuh x sempat makan. Dia x nak makan apa apa.. apa bagi pun dia jawab "..mother nanak..".xpela hoping that my husband can do the trick of feeding her. Sampai rumah je bila PAPA dia keluar her face lit up..."PAPA...'" Happy gila. suka pulak i look at her...kembali active and nakal. Happy to be back she 'decorate' rumah dengan mainan dia. But husband worried. Nak bawak dia g Hospital Jugak..Aish...Sampai sana dia masih lagi aktif..berbual dengan My sis in law Nadiah yang setia ikut. Masih lagi ketawa, bergurau, jalan sini sana..senyum..comel..ramai yang lalu dok cubit2 dia sampai dia mintak dokong je cause..x suka orang kacau dia. Bila masuk bilik doctor, doctor checked. She is Dehydrated. ADMIT..alamak.!~~ the words yang paling i dont want to hear. Argh..i look at Idris. He understand apa yang i was thinking..." xpe sayang for her sake"..aku diam je. I ask him to hold her when they put in the drip. I xleh tengok. X sampai Hati. Nadiah pun..she and me duduk balik dinding. Bila nurse nak masukkan drip, i look at i saw they ikat her with blanket. She was screaming for me.." mama here pish, mama pain pain..x nak pain..Papa pish".. x sedar i nangis. Sedey see my baby cam tu. Only her Papa got the guts to hold her. If me..i dah bawak dia balik dah. Haish..a mothers heart is always soft!~ Berapa kali nurse to cuba x jumpa Vain dia. Nurse suruh masuk wad dulu then letak. Aish..sakit dia. Lepas je nurse tu lepas kan dia, dia cakap kat papa dia satu ayat buat me lagi nangis.."...papa...yaya pain papa.."..adoi...apasal la hati ni sentimental..Sarah Sayang..mommy sayang you!~